10 months as An assistant nurse, still getting scolded.. so discouraging..

[Jellyunicorntoast]

I don't blame anybody for getting angry with me at all. I know why my colleagues get angry with me.

i feel so heartbroken and depressed for making some of my colleagues dislike me.

today a patient pressed the code blue. Everybody ran like crazy to the patient, all except for me. I stood there stunned not knowing what I should do once I reached there.

so I just stood there without running to the patient.

1) some part of me knew that the patient had pressed the wrong button because it always happens.

2) I was shocked and didn't know what to do.

so my colleague hit me on my back and scolded me: what are you doing!? U stand here like u are so lost!! , u didn't even go to the patient!!!!

I told her I'm sorry because I really didn't know what to do.

Since gossip spreads so fast, my other colleague who walked past me, she said: Makes me sooo angry.

Later on, the first colleague ignored me entirely even when I said bye to her.

i obviously know that shes angry and who wants to talk to someone who just pissed u off?

Just feel so heartbroken wondering when I will stop making anyone angry.

Even today the nurse who passed report passed so quickly because she hadn't had her lunch break at all, she passed so quick I didn't even hear some details. So later on my colleagues would remind me.

I hate to be this person that stresses people out.

Has anyone every encountered this? Sorry, I'm not seeking pity, just need some assurance and encouragement in this time

[l1234567]

Also op,

incase as a new grad you're not familiar with the areas I suggested I thought I might break it down

Mental health inpatients: usually one set of obs done per shift MH and physical. Tiny chance of a code. All interventions that are of risk are done in a different area by an RN and doctor

outpatients: you want to get into a clinic. Ophthalmology (eyes) dermatology (skin) or a

general clinic (has multiple teams; you are there to fax paperwork do some injections be a 'watcher' if you are female and the doctor is male) very low stress

you our could also try rehab same money: not my cup of tea but could be yours

you don't want (assumed from your post)

- oncology (cancer) outpatients

- day surgery

- radiology

- acute or hdu ICU or emergency

If you're in a peadiatric hospital try to go adults. If you're in a private hospital go public!!!!

A career change could also be called for: try an administration officer position.

btw I am telling the truth about changing positions. I almost quit nursing entirely: I thought I was useless and actually dangerous. I wasn't. I had a toxic work culture because people didn't care, didn't want to educate and didn't help. I froze and was slow all the time. But when I finished my program I was offered multiple positions by wards because I had/ have a good reputation. People still try to poach me!

also I would be surprised if you had any more than a week's orientation on your ward probably with different people. You may of been given a bad foundation. I had one in my first position, in my second position i was given three days orientation in a totally different area (much more complicated pts and higher ratios and went well and felt far more confident after that)

[Windyhill, BSN]

You should try a nursing home first, or think about working at a small critical access facility if possible. It sounds like you are in a facility where the nurses are under a lot of stress, and need CNAs to be experienced with tough skin and stomachs. Maybe you should work up to something like you are doing now, instead of starting there.

[quiltynurse56, LPN, LVN]

Now is the time to ask your charge nurse or nurse manager to walk you through what you should do during a code. When something happens that you are not sure of, it is best to get input from others so you know what to do should the situation happen again. No matter where you work, you can put this to use. I work nursing homes and have done this myself as a new nurse.

[canoehead, BSN, RN]

You don't have to run into the room during a code. You can be the one person that stays out watching the other patients. You vou can be a runner for supplies and meds, you can stay by the phone and enter orders/ rustle paperwork. You could just grab some paper and start writing down what happens. With less than a year of experience, just walk towards something, and make yourself useful.