I've been wanting to be a nurse be a nurse for so long now. But, what am I? Nothing but a wife and mother. I wake up; get ready for work; get my son ready for school; go to work at a boring insurance company; pick up my son from school; stop at the grocery store; cook dinner; help my son with his homework; wash a few loads of clothes; clean & organize; go to school; and try to make time to study. My gpa sucks because I can't study as much as I need because I have so much other crap to deal with. I make time for everyone else except ME! When am I going to get a break and take time out to pursue my dreams? I have $15K in student loans currently, and have no degree. We make to much for me to get financial aid and because our bills are souring out of control, I have to work fulltime. I was accepted to BSN program and was supposed to start this Jan but because I had trouble with Stats, I had to postpone NS until 2010. I am so depressed right now, it's unbelievable. My situation might seem like nothing (some may say it's "the norm") but I'm tired. Tired of putting everyone's feelings, needs, and wants ahead of mine. All I wanna do is go to school for a couple of years, get my degree, then come back (mentally) and be the wife and mother that I'm supposed to be. Life sucks.
I want to flip the script a little bit and encourage all of my young, single, girls and guys, to do IT while you can. Please do not wait until you are dealing with familyhood and decide to go back to school (nursing school at that!) I've read so many post on here where folks have worked 2 jobs, had 4 boys, went to school fulltime, and graduated with a 4.0. Well good for you! I envy you. I wish I could.
Thanks for the clarification. You have to admit though, that when you consider the statement "But, what am I? Nothing but a wife and mother.", its understandable that TakeTwoAspirin would arrive at the conclusion which s/he did....
i can understand the whole "what am I? Nothing but a wife and mother." because that is what i am. a wife and mother. I want to add more to that title. Presently I am a wife, mother, CNA...i want more. i want to be a good wife, a good mother , a good CNA and someday a good nurse.
Being a nurse does not define who you are.It's a personal goal that you set out to accomplish. and once that goal is met, your level of self-confidence sky rockets, you boosted your own self esteem, you did something for yourself, something that makes you feel worthwhile, worthy and more valuable to YOURSELF. And in turn when you feel good about yourself, your desicions, your life. you become a happier person, and your family is happier. The phrase "what am I ? nothing but a wife and mother." is not to be taken literally, it's something some of us mothers/wives say when we are being spread sooo thin and sacrificing so much for our husband and kids, that we loose sight of ourselves, neglect our desires and dreams and never take the time to for ourselves that we deserve. We spend soo much time making sure that our husbands and kids are healthy and happy that we dont' take the time to evaluate our own happiness.
Being a nurse would make me happy, because that is something I want to do for me. Because that is a goal I have set out to accomplish and have not even got to the point of beginning to accomplish it. something I wanted to do before hubby and the kids came along.
NuttyNik, you are brave to say exactly what you feel. For every person who you described in your last paragraph (4.0 + 4 kids + full-time job = perfect person), there are probably 5 others who walk in YOUR shoes. Most of the people I went to school with had a heckuva time balancing work, school, family, etc. I know I did. And the reality is, no matter what you do, someone is going to pay a price. My kids paid a price for me going back to school. My husband paid a price. My extended family and friends paid a price. I certainly paid a price. Such is life ~ nobody comes out unscathed!
I say all this to encourage you...... that you are probably the norm, not the exception, to this crazy journey to becoming a nurse. I'm just glad that we have a place (here on allnurses!) that we can come to and say what we really feel.
I was a single mom when I decided to start nursing school. My kids were very young and both have special needs. I started with non-nursing classes and went from there. I had to quit several times due to lack of transportation, children being hospitalized, or even my own inability to continue mentally or emotionally. It wasnt until the kids were a little bit older (7 &10) that I was finally able to enroll in a nursing program. Trust me, that was most trying two years of my life to balance school and family. I did the ADN route so that I could work more quickly. I met someone at the begining of nursing school who was very supportive of me and helped me get through school, but we also had our fair share of ups and downs during that time. Now that I look back I wish I had'nt stressed so much when my children were little, about finishing school. I look back and miss them being babies. I reallly worried that time away trying to figure out how to become a nurse. It has been a great sense of accomplishment, but being my kids mom it far more defining. Having RN behind my name shows that I completed school, having my kids love me and meeting their needs emotionally shows I meant something in this life.
I understand your frustration yet becoming a nurse won't solve all of life's problems, IMHO. I had many classmates that thjought getting a degree would make them happy only to find that nursing is hard work and a big sacrafice in itself. Plus there is something to be said for the work you do now in your home as a wifde and mom. I hope you get to fulfill your dream and I also hope you find some contentment with where you are now in life.
Are you kidding? Just a wife and mother? I am a wife, mother and nursing student. I am first and foremost a mother and wife and nursing school is last on my priority list. Being a mother is not something to be proud of but being a good mom is so much harder than even nursing school. Not to be harsh but you chose this life and dont make your family take a backseat to your dreams. You son deserves the best, you will have plenty of time to be a nurse. If you still want to be a nurse, go the adn route youll be a nurse and in less time. Good comprimise
I think NikkiNut you might be going through depression,it sounds like it from what your describing in your post or you are bored with life which also is a sign of depression.
Just when you think the grass is greener on the other side. I am always jealous of women like you who are married, with kids, I just look at them in the mall and get sad. I don't have anybody, and I really won't have anytime to meet a man if I start nursing school. I fear that I'll be one of those nurses who wind up an old maid): And who just works and works and works with no life.
Just when you think the grass is greener on the other side. I am always jealous of women like you who are married, with kids, I just look at them in the mall and get sad. I don't have anybody, and I really won't have anytime to meet a man if I start nursing school. I fear that I'll be one of those nurses who wind up an old maid): And who just works and works and works with no life.
Dont worry Ms.Nurse assistant you will find your man the in the least expected moment.I'm not alone but often times I feel alone because my boyfriend is in the military so most of the time we are apart...
However it coded in people's nature to desire things they dont have.
I was a single mom when I decided to start nursing school. My kids were very young and both have special needs. I started with non-nursing classes and went from there. I had to quit several times due to lack of transportation, children being hospitalized, or even my own inability to continue mentally or emotionally. It wasnt until the kids were a little bit older (7 &10) that I was finally able to enroll in a nursing program. Trust me, that was most trying two years of my life to balance school and family. I did the ADN route so that I could work more quickly. I met someone at the begining of nursing school who was very supportive of me and helped me get through school, but we also had our fair share of ups and downs during that time. Now that I look back I wish I had'nt stressed so much when my children were little, about finishing school. I look back and miss them being babies. I reallly worried that time away trying to figure out how to become a nurse. It has been a great sense of accomplishment, but being my kids mom it far more defining. Having RN behind my name shows that I completed school, having my kids love me and meeting their needs emotionally shows I meant something in this life.
Don't feel this way! Hey, I regret not spending more time with my twins when they were babies, and I didn't even go to nursing school until they were 5! SO, you can't look back on the past!! Cherish them now, before they grow up even more. My boys are 15 now and pushing away from me,, but they're still my babies and I am cherishing them as much as I ccan before they grow up and move out. You did good by being a single mom and getting your nursing license,, now you can take care of them and you are independent (if you want to be!) :)
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i can understand the whole "what am I? Nothing but a wife and mother." because that is what i am. a wife and mother. I want to add more to that title. Presently I am a wife, mother, CNA...i want more. i want to be a good wife, a good mother , a good CNA and someday a good nurse.
Being a nurse does not define who you are.It's a personal goal that you set out to accomplish. and once that goal is met, your level of self-confidence sky rockets, you boosted your own self esteem, you did something for yourself, something that makes you feel worthwhile, worthy and more valuable to YOURSELF. And in turn when you feel good about yourself, your desicions, your life. you become a happier person, and your family is happier. The phrase "what am I ? nothing but a wife and mother." is not to be taken literally, it's something some of us mothers/wives say when we are being spread sooo thin and sacrificing so much for our husband and kids, that we loose sight of ourselves, neglect our desires and dreams and never take the time to for ourselves that we deserve. We spend soo much time making sure that our husbands and kids are healthy and happy that we dont' take the time to evaluate our own happiness.
Being a nurse would make me happy, because that is something I want to do for me. Because that is a goal I have set out to accomplish and have not even got to the point of beginning to accomplish it. something I wanted to do before hubby and the kids came along.