I got angry when I read your post. Not at you, Risa, but at the system....time and time again I read posts like yours...nurses who put heart and soul into their jobs, day in and day out, and still walk away feeling like they haven't done enough. I'm angered by this system that can chew up and spit out nurses like you in just a short period of time. It's not fair.
I also get upset at all the suffering in the world, which your corner seems to have more than a fair share of. No answers for that, either.
I IMPLORE you to flush those feelings of inadequacy right this minute. You DO NOT deserve them. You deserve to be hugged and admired and compensated for what you do. Most people could not, would not, DARE NOT do what you do, day in and day out. To say that it is heroic does not even touch it. You are a hero every day to those little ones. They cannot thank you. Their parents might not even thank you. But I'm glad you came here and shared your story, because it gives me an opportunity to say THANK YOU.
I just want you to know that what you do makes a big difference.