I noticed this problem at the end of first year. I became a really negative person, hated life, thought everything was unfair, and I'm 100% sure it was because of my first year of nursing.
I did a complete 360 on my negativity the next year, and made many new friends and started my own business while in my second year of nursing. But, I only was able to do this because I started to focus on things outside of nursing. I still get straight As, but my heart is not in it.
Is it just me? Do I just not like nursing? Or does anybody else experience this?
Specializes in Peds/outpatient FP,derm,allergy/private duty.
I believe after one year of nursing I was still painfully aware of the daunting learning curve, as exemplified by the occasional response I've seen to posts where a mistake is described (responsibly rather than blaming others)
"you could kill someone if you did that!" Yeah, thanks . . I was rarely not thinking about that at the time. Also, I entered the field with a pragmatic frame of mind, and was familiar with the healthcare employment field such that I didn't have lofty expectations of either myself or my patients.
Based just on what I read here about what current new nurses face, emphasis on customer service while staffing cut to the bone, frequent punitive write-ups, managers undercutting staff nurses in a dispute, etc. I may very well have developed a negative attitude toward people, because the powers that be seem to actually encourage behaviors that lead to nurses feeling cynical, and of being disrespected from all sides.
I noticed this problem at the end of first year. I became a really negative person, hated life, thought everything was unfair, and I'm 100% sure it was because of my first year of nursing.
I did a complete 360 on my negativity the next year, and made many new friends and started my own business while in my second year of nursing. But, I only was able to do this because I started to focus on things outside of nursing. I still get straight As, but my heart is not in it.
Is it just me? Do I just not like nursing? Or does anybody else experience this?
I'm sorry but this has been bugging me. You did a 180, not a 360. If you did a 360, you would come full circle. You do a 180 when you completely change from one position to another.
Anyway, the answer is "no" nursing has not made me more negative. I was already negative prior to being a nurse. In fact, I have become more positive because of my depression and PTSD. I refuse to let excuses and a negative outlook get in my way. I only have this one life and I am going to make the most of it!
Nursing is merely a way to make money. If i happen to make a difference in someone's life, that is just a plus.
Yeah, thanks . . I was rarely not thinking about that at the time. Also, I entered the field with a pragmatic frame of mind, and was familiar with the healthcare employment field such that I didn't have lofty expectations of either myself or my patients.
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