I was booted out of the program on the very last day of the semester

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It's my fault, I didn't study as hard as I thought I did. You know how it is, you start to lose that steam you had at the beginning of the semester. In our program 75.5 is passing. I had a 73.11 or something close to it before the final exam. I needed a 79 to have an ending average of 74.77. Well, I made a 77 on the final, and my average ended up being 74.17...not even half of a measley point. I didn't beg for the extra points because that would have just barely passed me. I cried a ton when they told me, and so did my instructors. I came home and felt sorry for myself, cried, got angry with myself, got angry with the instructors, blamed everything and everyone but myself. I ended up having a moment of clarity later in the evening. The DON told me that she would welcome me back next year and that the spot was guaranteed. She let me know that I was one of the most kind and caring ppl she had met and that I would definately make a good nurse; the other instructor in the room agreed. Now, they could have been feeding me a line of doodoo to soften the blow, but I am choosing to believe them. In my heart I know without a doubt I was awesome with those patients at clinicals, and I enjoyed it so much. My problem...the bookwork. I understand their decision, and I think this is the best for me and for any of my future patients. I need to really be able to grasp every single concept they throw at us to be the best I can be. It hurts so much to not be able to graduate with the friends I have made, including my best friend but today is new day. I have already registered for a mid-winter class, and I will register for a full course load to finish the majority of my pre-reqs for the RN program. I will graciously except the spot they offered me in the LVN program for next year, and if it's God's will, I will be accepted to the RN program in the spring following graduation and graduate in December w/my ADN. This happened for a reason. I am not sure of the reason, but it is truly a life lesson.

I guess my point is this: to encourage anyone who did not make it through nursing school and feels discouraged. Don't wallow in self pity. Accept responsibility for your actions, or lack of responsibilty, dust yourself off, and try again. Come back more fierce and determined than ever. If you truly want to be a nurse, it is worth fighting for and giving it your all. Soo instead of all the :crying2: :crying2: :crying2: ....try :) :) :) . There's always hope, and another chance!!!!

Thank you for letting me share my feelings with all of you:)

Below is a pic from my last clinical day. We had a christmas party for all of the residents at the nursing home. I'm the goofy gal who thinks she's a reindeer:chuckle And the other 2 are my best friends(met them in school)

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Specializes in Med-Surg, Trauma, Ortho, Neuro, Cardiac.

Veronica, I'm so sorry to hear this. Instructors rarely give feedback to students they don't mean, do it's not a line of do do.

Sounds like you've been through a lot of emotions and came through it quickly with a positive attitude. That says a lot. You know you're a good nurse. Good luck!

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It's my fault, I didn't study as hard as I thought I did. You know how it is, you start to lose that steam you had at the beginning of the semester. In our program 75.5 is passing. I had a 73.11 or something close to it before the final exam. I needed a 79 to have an ending average of 74.77. Well, I made a 77 on the final, and my average ended up being 74.17...not even half of a measley point. I didn't beg for the extra points because that would have just barely passed me. I cried a ton when they told me, and so did my instructors. I came home and felt sorry for myself, cried, got angry with myself, got angry with the instructors, blamed everything and everyone but myself. I ended up having a moment of clarity later in the evening. The DON told me that she would welcome me back next year and that the spot was guaranteed. She let me know that I was one of the most kind and caring ppl she had met and that I would definately make a good nurse; the other instructor in the room agreed. Now, they could have been feeding me a line of doodoo to soften the blow, but I am choosing to believe them. In my heart I know without a doubt I was awesome with those patients at clinicals, and I enjoyed it so much. My problem...the bookwork. I understand their decision, and I think this is the best for me and for any of my future patients. I need to really be able to grasp every single concept they throw at us to be the best I can be. It hurts so much to not be able to graduate with the friends I have made, including my best friend but today is new day. I have already registered for a mid-winter class, and I will register for a full course load to finish the majority of my pre-reqs for the RN program. I will graciously except the spot they offered me in the LVN program for next year, and if it's God's will, I will be accepted to the RN program in the spring following graduation and graduate in December w/my ADN. Thia happened for a reason. I am not sure of the reason, but it is truly a life lesson.

I guess my point is this: to encourage anyone who did not make it through nursing school and feels discouraged. Don't wallow in self pity. Accept responsibility for your actions, or lack of responsibilty, dust yourself off, and try again. Come back more fierce and determined than ever. If you truly want to be a nurse, it is worth fighting for and giving it your all. Soo instead of all the :crying2: :crying2: :crying2: ....try :) :) :) . There's always hope, and another chance!!!!

Thank you for letting me share my feelings with all of you:)

It sounds as tho, once you worked through the pain and grief, your maturity and responsibility shone through... Kudos to you!!

Hang tough, learn from this experience and you will be the better nurse and person for it. Thanks for sharing w/ us!!

SJ

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Specializes in Med-Surg, Psych.

(((Veronica)))

Your positive attitude and outlook will get you far in you school!

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Awesome attitude and great acceptance of responsbility. In my opinion you will go far in life, not just nursing with such a great self awareness. In the informal wise words someone uttered long ago... YOU GO GIRL!

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Thanks you guys! I appreciate all of the kind words and encouragement! I have grown tons as a person since the beginning of the semester. A truly amazing ride it's been. Hehe, i get to go back to school 1 year older and a bit more wiser:p

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Specializes in CICu, ICU, med-surg.

Wow, I'm so impressed with your attitude. I can only imagine how difficult this must be, but you really seem to be dealing with it in a mature and rational fashion. Good luck with everything in the future. Judging by this post alone, it looks like you'll make a great nurse. :)

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Specializes in OB-Gyn/Primary Care/Ambulatory Leadership.

I'm so sorry, but it's so great to hear your good attitude, and the fact that you're going to give it another go next year!

I'm a huge believer in the idea that everything happens for a reason, and I bet in the next year you'll come to realize that this happened for a reason, too, and that everything will just fall together nicely for you next year when you go back.

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you know that i've been rooting for you girl all along, and i am so proud of how far you came, the loving care you gave your patients, and the remarkable attitude you've shown when it didn't work out as you originally planned!:)

i will be right there again next year as well, as long as i can get a grasp on this math before hand. (now i know they will be testing us on math like crazy at the very beginning) so i hope to get a handle on it before then.:uhoh21: but i do admire your can do attitude, and i know that next year is gonna be our year! no the instructors weren't feeding you a line of bull.

you're going to be a terrific nurse!

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Specializes in critical care; community health; psych.

It's not the boot, just a gentle nudge. You'll be back better and stronger. You will make a fine nurse.

Kat

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Veronica, I'm so sorry this happened to you! You are handling it A LOT better than I would be. You seem to be a very intelligent and caring person. Good luck next year and with your PreReqs.

P.S. You are so adorable!

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Specializes in LTC/Behavioral/ Hospice.

I hope you know by now that I think you are an awesome woman and will be an amazing nurse! You have such a positive spirit about you! Thank you for being the wonderful person that you are, Veronica! You are a role model for me! :)

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