I just had my nurse pinning and it was an amazing experience but I also left feeling a little bit upset. They gave out awards and some if the awards for clinical excellence. A good bit of the students did not demonstrate this in my opinion. They picked all the students who did the LPN program and then finished with the RN for one thing. Of course those students are going to have extra time with the instructors. Then the picked one girl who complained every chance she got and talked so much crap about every instructor. I had to intentionally distance myself from this person she had mouthed our program so much. One guy almost failed clinical which isn't even easy to do in my program because basically everyone gets As and Be in clinical. One girl who openly admitted she refuses to do CNA work to the instructors got picked. Another girl who said she hates bed side nursing and went through the same oncology immersion as me and said she wanted to cry everyday because it was so hard. It upsets me because I always tried to keep a positive attitude. I had multiple nurses go up to my instructors and speak about how well I did. I hadn't gotten any deficiency points in clinical since level one in clinical. I had an incident that I won't go into details about but that nurse personally write my instructors emails about me. And I was upset because I did so well in clinicals moreso than the students who were chosen and didn't get picked. It made me angry that every person who did the LPN got picked. Not to mention there were a few other students who were exceptional in clinical who ddint get picked. It actually has stuck with me and I am thinking about writing a letter to the new dean of nursing. They also picked some students who had failed and then came back. Of course the instructors are going to know them better they had an extra year to get to know them. My school also lets students who failed a semester who retake a course into the honor society. I just think the whole structure in u fair. Not to mention my school uses the same exam questions and the students with friends or siblings who went through the program previously all cheated their assed off. They only change a few questions every semester. And I watched them get awards I don't think they earned.
I had a health issue that I never complained about or tried to get attention for, my husband had a gambling addiction, I have three children... and got through it with no failing and exceptional clinical abilities. I'm just mad it was a popularity contest instead of a recognition of clinical ability. I didn't have time to linger around the instructors offices all the time I had to get home to my son.
I can't help but feel negative emotions even though it doesn't matter anymore because we graduated anymore. Should I write the dean an annamous letter?