I am a 45yr old mom of 2 that graduated from nursing school may 08. Got a job in a large hosp that is 45min from home. Now I work 3 nites a week was 4 until I asked to decrease with summer coming up. I found out last nite that a girl 21 who started exactly 1month after me is going to be trained to be a charge nurse. Now she is a 1.0 and is 1/2 my age with no kids. But I am still upset I feel that I am not doing it. I have not been told anything bad, I do ask alot of questions vs many other nurses. But I am the one who is left on the floor alone when the others are on break, I am the nurse answering call bells. I am the nurse who goes around to other nurses and aides asking if they need help. I am the one who empties trash cans. I am the one who gets 2 admits while others have 3 empty beds. I feel so used and like I am not making it. I truly try my best I do not sit and gossip or read the paper or play on my phone. I am always checking labs looking things up. WHY.
Thanks for listening