I felt the same way too when I was starting out! Oh man, I hated hospital work...and made it about 6 months and quit running and screaming! I swore up and down I would NEVER do it again!!!!
Then, I spent 6 years doing other nursing jobs, DD homes, camp nursing...then finally an ALF working there for 4 years. Boy did I learn a ton about myself and my patients by working with the biggest population of pts...elderly! I was humbled big time, and really got to learn who I was as a nurse and may I say...calmed down a bit, and learned to handle the stress much more
Well...the ALF couldn't keep me basically...so I went to agency and found a wonderful small community hospital...one of the ones I had done clinicals for and didn't have the best experience as I recalled. BUT...it was great! I had learned so much, and matured as a nurse that it was a breeze (well...4 years of being the only nurse for 140 + people in a LTC type facility teaches you time management and stress techniques pretty darn well let me tell ya! LOL!).
Now I work for them full time in med surge/ortho/OB and loving nursing again! You could have bowled me over with a feather! I swore I would never go back to hospital...now I love it!
The docs and other staff are excellent and very friendly! I feel valued for my opinions and work by everyone! Patients are typically kind and more relaxed then other larger hospitals. I wouldn't give up the community feel of that place for anything!
So, take a chance...see what is out there for you! I did agency till I found the right place I could call 'home base'...then I hired on on MY terms! That was cool!