I am a nurse with just about a year and half experience as a working RN. My first position was working LTC/skilled nursing, and I absolutely hated it. I felt I didn't learn much and I was overwhelmed more and more everyday. I left and found a subacute RN position and so far I've been there a little over 6 months. I think it's a good job to get some decent experience, but I still feel like I have not progressed. I still feel as though I lack many critical thinking skills and I have many stupid moments that I look back at and ask myself why I didn't catch that or think of that. I have great support from my nurse managers and DON, but my self-esteem has greatly been affected. I find myself comparing myself to other nurses, and am amazed on how well they are able to catch on to changes in a patient's status and know the steps to take. Doing this makes me feel stupid. There are days I still have crazy anxiety going into work, but then there's days I feel like I can conquer the day and what comes with it.
My primary issue that I feel like I'm struggling with is critical thinking. Nursing school does not teach you how to critically think, and I know it sometimes takes longer for some, but as a nurse for a year and a half already, am I just slower, or is this something that will never come to me? I work on a subacute floor, where I can have up to about 16 patients if the unit is filled. I find it incredibly hard to keep eyes on all patients, know patient hx, background, etc. My med passes can sometimes be heavy, then having to deal with wound tx and doctor's orders, I end up feeling extremely overwhelmed at times, where I'm begin to rush to just get everything done. I work 8 hour shifts and I feel myself a lot of the times rushing to get it all time that I forget what the purpose of me being there and why I became a nurse in the first place. I feel as though if I were to work in a setting where the ratio is smaller, I would be able to take the time, learn my patients, and actually work on my nursing skills. Many of the times, I walk into the room, introduce myself, get vitals, do a quick look over, and move on to the next patient. Some of the patients, as sad as it is, I only see a few times in an 8 hour shift. It sometimes leaves me feeling unaccomplished and disappointed.
Regarding critical thinking, I had a patient the other day where I walked in and got vitals. I got a BP of 204/80, and an oral temp of 102.5. I rechecked manually and got 190/76. Looking at her diagnosis, she was admitted for septic arthritis, and was being treated with IV ABT. I assessed for pain, gave her her IV ABT, scheduled Coreg, oxycodone for pain, and Tylenol for pain. I figured her BP was raised because she was running a fever and was in severe pain, and after looking at her BP trends, she did usually run on the higher side. But seeing this high number put me in panic mode. I quickly notified my supervisor and told her we should contact the doctor. Granted she was on BP medications, but it was a relatively small dose, so I felt it was right to reach out to the doctor. The supervisor told me to recheck the BP, and temp in two hours before reaching out to the doctor. What is your take on this? I also feel like because I go into panic mode, my first reaction is to call the doctor instead of critically thinking and asking myself why this may be happening. Sometimes I jump at it before looking at PRN orders, or the patient's background and medical hx. I am also scared to make myself look like an incompetent idiot if I were to call the doctor unnecessarily. Thankfully her BP did decrease to the 130s, and her fever did break, but was I overreacting? I am scared to make a mistake, not take initiative, and feel like an idiot. I also still struggle with identifying situations that warrant a doctor's call versus me working through the problem myself. I feel as though I need to just stop, take a breath and critically think problems through. Any advice on this? I need to work on my self-esteem and not be so nervous.
I am a nurse with just about a year and half experience as a working RN. My first position was working LTC/skilled nursing, and I absolutely hated it. I felt I didn't learn much and I was overwhelmed more and more everyday. I left and found a subacute RN position and so far I've been there a little over 6 months. I think it's a good job to get some decent experience, but I still feel like I have not progressed. I still feel as though I lack many critical thinking skills and I have many stupid moments that I look back at and ask myself why I didn't catch that or think of that. I have great support from my nurse managers and DON, but my self-esteem has greatly been affected. I find myself comparing myself to other nurses, and am amazed on how well they are able to catch on to changes in a patient's status and know the steps to take. Doing this makes me feel stupid. There are days I still have crazy anxiety going into work, but then there's days I feel like I can conquer the day and what comes with it.
My primary issue that I feel like I'm struggling with is critical thinking. Nursing school does not teach you how to critically think, and I know it sometimes takes longer for some, but as a nurse for a year and a half already, am I just slower, or is this something that will never come to me? I work on a subacute floor, where I can have up to about 16 patients if the unit is filled. I find it incredibly hard to keep eyes on all patients, know patient hx, background, etc. My med passes can sometimes be heavy, then having to deal with wound tx and doctor's orders, I end up feeling extremely overwhelmed at times, where I'm begin to rush to just get everything done. I work 8 hour shifts and I feel myself a lot of the times rushing to get it all time that I forget what the purpose of me being there and why I became a nurse in the first place. I feel as though if I were to work in a setting where the ratio is smaller, I would be able to take the time, learn my patients, and actually work on my nursing skills. Many of the times, I walk into the room, introduce myself, get vitals, do a quick look over, and move on to the next patient. Some of the patients, as sad as it is, I only see a few times in an 8 hour shift. It sometimes leaves me feeling unaccomplished and disappointed.
Regarding critical thinking, I had a patient the other day where I walked in and got vitals. I got a BP of 204/80, and an oral temp of 102.5. I rechecked manually and got 190/76. Looking at her diagnosis, she was admitted for septic arthritis, and was being treated with IV ABT. I assessed for pain, gave her her IV ABT, scheduled Coreg, oxycodone for pain, and Tylenol for pain. I figured her BP was raised because she was running a fever and was in severe pain, and after looking at her BP trends, she did usually run on the higher side. But seeing this high number put me in panic mode. I quickly notified my supervisor and told her we should contact the doctor. Granted she was on BP medications, but it was a relatively small dose, so I felt it was right to reach out to the doctor. The supervisor told me to recheck the BP, and temp in two hours before reaching out to the doctor. What is your take on this? I also feel like because I go into panic mode, my first reaction is to call the doctor instead of critically thinking and asking myself why this may be happening. Sometimes I jump at it before looking at PRN orders, or the patient's background and medical hx. I am also scared to make myself look like an incompetent idiot if I were to call the doctor unnecessarily. Thankfully her BP did decrease to the 130s, and her fever did break, but was I overreacting? I am scared to make a mistake, not take initiative, and feel like an idiot. I also still struggle with identifying situations that warrant a doctor's call versus me working through the problem myself. I feel as though I need to just stop, take a breath and critically think problems through. Any advice on this? I need to work on my self-esteem and not be so nervous.