Are these legitimate concerns, or am I psyching myself out?

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Specializes in Allergy/Immunology.

Hello! I've been enjoying reading your boards for a few months now. (Mostly, sometimes you guys scare me ;) ) I must apologize now for how long this is going to be.

Well, I was hoping to get advice from some of you, who are impartial. My family and friends, I believe, are telling me what I want to hear.Ok, so, I'm 37, almost 38 and I haven't been to school in 20 years. I've been a stay at home mom for 9 years now, and now that my youngest is starting first grade, I have really been feeling that I wanted more for myself. I wanted to make my kids proud. I was always misguided. Never knew what I wanted to do with my life, but I used to joke that if someone forced me to pick a job on the spot, nursing was always the first thing that came to mind. I always felt a little pang when I knew someone that was a nurse or was starting school for nursing. But I have never had much confidence in myself or my abilities. I have a very hard time understanding what I read, if it doesn't hold my interest. And I have test anxiety. BUT that being said, I taught myself how to type, because in HS I couldn't get it. I needed to be able to type for my job and didn't get many in the early 90's when I'd go on interviews and couldn't even copy the text they'd give me. So when my mom got me a job with the state in the mid 90's, I taught myself how to type and got the job. After that everything I learned was on the job training. If you show me how to do something usually once, I can do it immediately. I learn best by doing. I taught myself algebra, when I heard that there would be algebra on the TABE test and I had never taken it in HS.So, I have been researching school and this field like crazy. I have many personal experiences with nurses which left such an impression on me. If I could make one person feel the way they made me feel those various times, I'd love that.I took the TABE on May 16th and I failed math. I was literally shocked, I thought I was so prepared. 11.0 passes ATB, and I got 12.9 on Reading and Language and 8.5 on Math Computation. :( The worst was fractions and percents.What a blow to my self esteem. I retake the test, math only, July 11th. in between studying, I have been thinking, and I way over think things. Now I'm really wondering if I'm not facing an uphill battle and, if this really is the career for me.My concerns and negatives (in my mind) are:My tattoos:-covering up will be difficult, I've got a few on the inside of my wrists. One on my forearm that I'm in the middle of removing but--the removal process is long; I'm bandaged up and that might be an issue in school/clinicals-in my mind jobs will be hindered (why not hire the untattooed nurse?)(a silly one but) My nails won't grow and hurt when they are under stress, they're brittle, peel and bend. This is from years of acrylic... My hands look gross, right now. But I'm trying things to help them get stronger.My background:-I didn't have a very good upbringing and it made me kind of bitter.-I was infertile for years, I have had 3 miscarriages, and after the last, I had a breakdown. Went to the ER, because my husband didn't know what else to do and they sent me for one night to a psychiatric hospital!! In the morning I met with the dr there and he agreed with me that I didn't belong there and sent me home. But it's still in my health history, and quite frankly, humiliating. (experiences with nurses during that and then after during the IVF ordeal, we're amazing. I'll never forget them!)-I am a sexual assault survivor. It went to trial and the guy went to jail. But that FREAKS ME OUT that it is in my background. (Again, my nurse there in the hospital was amazing!!) if I could be a SAFE nurse and give back what I got then, it'd mean the world. No judgement, just compassion)School:-I am honestly scared of my ability to grasp math. I've failed another practice test. Math is an important skill in nursing.-I don't know if my desire to help others is enough. At least thats what I have read here ;) The hours are long, the job is psychical, the jobs are hard to come by. I'm ok with the first two, the last scares me, and as I said, I'm fearful I've already got a disadvantage going in.:(-The cost is $18,000.00, which isn't an issue but;-if I fail out at any point, there are no refunds. That's an issue.So that's basically it. I'm so sorry this is so long. I feel that I have no one else to talk to honestly about this.Thank you :)

Specializes in Allergy/Immunology.

Holy cow, I had paragraph breaks and theyre gone. This'll be hard to read :-/

1. Having short nails is actually an advantage. Longer nails increases the chances of bacteria being caught under them and being spread to patients. In fact, I am nearly certain that most nursing schools require short nails.

2. I posted a how-to on fractions on youtube (TEAS Review: Adding, Subtracting, Multiplying and Dividing Fractions - YouTube) scan youtube for videos on fractions/percentages, there are tons of them with plenty of examples.

3. As long as your tattoos are not offensive, they most likely won't be a problem. Most schools have long sleeve under shirts that students can wear for cases like this anyway.

4. Don't allow your self to fail. Just study until you have all material memorized/learned, and you WILL be successful!

5. Nursing jobs are out there. Your dream nursing job may not be immediately available, but if you can fight in the trenches, so to speak, until it is then you will get one.

P.S: Holy wall-of-text :-P.

Specializes in Allergy/Immunology.

Thanks for replying. I can't figure out how to get paragraph breaks.

I meant to clarify that I am trying to get my nails stronger, not longer :) I know it's not acceptable in school and work.

My editing didn't work :-/

Lots of concerns, but sounds like this is something you are passionate about.

I think your biggest real obstacle is your math skills. However, I wouldn't worry here. I'd just study. If you can teach yourself Algebra then you can certainly teach yourself to handle fractions and percents! Note that these are two very similar areas - so once you get one down then you will probably get the other too!

Specializes in public health, women's health, reproductive health.

I felt bad because I found your post hard to read without paragraph breaks.

I will say this, math is my weak point. But what works is practice. Just practice, practice, practice with many different problems. There are so many internet resources. Don't let math hold you back.

Specializes in Allergy/Immunology.
Specializes in Forensic Psych.

If you're on a phone/iPad, go back and edit your posts after sending. My iPhone won't use paragraphs until I re-edit.

I sort of skimmed because of the word-wall effect , but I wouldn't worry about tattoos. Most professional careers discourage visible body art, so there's nowhere for you to run. Find a way to cover them. Your nails will be fine, I'm sure.

Check with your state's BON. In Texas, you can file for a background check at any time - even of you aren't in a nursing program yet. You could always have a check run and see if you clear easily if that's the case for you.

I'm not a big math person, and the way people were talking about it, I was prepared for my brain to explode. Then, after learning it and some practice, I found myself thinking, "This can't be all of it. There has to be more!". It's all about practice. Driving a car is pretty complicated at first, too, but eventually it's like second nature.

If I were you, I'd take a CNA course. You seem to have a lot of doubts, and confidence is what is going to get you into NS, get your through NS, and keep you in the field. Being a CNA can teach you some basic skills and up your confidence I the field.

Then I'd commit to taking an A&P class. It's a lot of work, and I think how you do in the course and how much you enjoy it will be a great gauge for you to decide if you want to move forward.

Learning on your own does not appear to be working in this case. You taught yourself to type, and that is great. However, typing is a motor skill. Math is mental skill. You might do well with someone guiding you through it. You said that 18,000 in tuition is not an issue, so why not take a math class? At my school anyway, taking and passing algebra was required or testing into a higher math to get into BIO and CHEM (Prerequisites for nursing). I agree with a previous poster that confidence is a must have, cannot do without trait for nursing school. Work on building up these tools in your toolbox. Accept the fact that you cannot teach yourself everything you need to know to get into nursing school. It does not reflect poorly on you to admit that.

Fractions

Percents

Ratios

It's all division and it took me 35 years to figure that out.

lol

I no longer fear math and have gone on to teach myself so much more... and enjoy it.

Sometimes, it's just a matter of finally having something shown to you... or finally seeing something... in just the right way.

Specializes in Med/Surg/Tele.
I'm not a big math person, and the way people were talking about it, I was prepared for my brain to explode. Then, after learning it and some practice, I found myself thinking, "This can't be all of it. There has to be more!". It's all about practice. Driving a car is pretty complicated at first, too, but eventually it's like second nature.

If I were you, I'd take a CNA course. You seem to have a lot of doubts, and confidence is what is going to get you into NS, get your through NS, and keep you in the field. Being a CNA can teach you some basic skills and up your confidence I the field.

What Stephalump said!

Math is not an easy subject to learn by yourself. You have not used the math you know in 20 years, so you should not be so hard on yourself.

If you do not mind my asking, why were you taking the TABE? Was it for placement in pre-req classes, or does your school use it as the Nursing Entrance exam? If it was for the former reason, then I would suggest that you not retake the test, but take the math class itself. (If it was the Nursing entrance exam, I would suggest that you take some pre-req's before you apply. Going back to school after 20 years can be a bit of a culture shock and you should get a few classes under your belt first.)

As for everything else, making changes your life can be scary. I think that you should do what will make you happy! Life is too short to live it by other people's standards. If you want to be a nurse, then figure out the steps you need to take to get there. Once you have a plan, take step 1. Then 2, 3, 4..... until you get where you need to be. You may have to revise your plan once or several times. You may make it on your first try. As long as you keep fighting for what you want, I can guarantee your kids will be proud of you.

Good luck!!!!

Specializes in Emergency, ICU.

Hi!

So first off - Relax.

Second: tattoos can be covered up with long sleeve T-shirts under your scrubs, something you'll want to wear even if you don't have body art.

Third: short nails are best and they will get stronger by the time you graduate.

Fourth: your personal health history is private and protected for a reason. No need to disclose your one night psych history! That's private and more people than you know have psych issues.

Fifth: victims of sexual assault are kept confidential in the legal system for a reason. That should not show up in any background check.

And lastly, Relax! You will do great on your math test and as you get back into the groove of studying, these worries will fade.

I started this career in my 30s also and we are much better prepared for it than someone fresh out of HS.

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