Yay I Am An Rn Now!!!!!!!!

What a long journey it had been but the waiting is over! My story is long but the point to it is for those out there who have failed the Nclex like I did once and for people who have lost faith, I hope my story can help.:heartbeat

I graduated in Florida with my Bachelors in Nursing in May of 2007. At the time I was living in Miami and wanted to move back home to Tampa. I figured it would be short term since I planned on passing my boards and we would only be there a few months. WOW was I wrong! I took the first 3 months to study and I did a private course which was my first mistake. I did Saunders questions and did very well. I scheduled my test for August in Sarasota which was an hour away from my home. Another mistake I made was to invite my fiance and mom to wait for me while I was in my test. So, not only did I have that on my mind, I was also thinking if I did not pass this test I would not get married, move to our own place, and not be able to start my life! DO NOT DO THIS!!! I totally bombed my test because I gave up in the middle of it and was not prepared from the studying I did. After finding that I failed (which I have NEVER failed in my LIFE), I hid everything relating to nursing and did not to speak about it. Anytime anyone would ask me about it, I would simply ignore them and die inside:uhoh3: Since I spent so much time studying, I realized I needed money and had to work. So, here I was serving tables with my bachelors degree and a member of Sigma Theta Tau (nursing honors society).... I ended up serving tables for 5 months and found myself getting alittle too comfortable for a life that was not me. I decided to take the money that I had saved from tips to enroll in the "magic" kaplan. Little did I know that this would be the best decision I had ever made:bow:

I had heard from EVERYONE that kaplan was the magic key and that I was pretty much guarnteed to pass. I figured if I spent the 500.00 it would pay off because once I passed I would be making major money and it would pay off (plus the hospital will more than likely reimburse you). After taking the course, doing 6 hours of studies per day, and 2000 questions later I was going to retake the Nclex. In the mean time I was still living with my fiances parents in their spare room with my fiance, 2 cats AND a dog and was well past the "3"month stay. It was more like 9 months!

When I went to take my nclex for the second time, I figured this was it. Everything was pointing to me being ready to do this and I had the mindset that I WOULD! On this past Friday, I woke up to take my test and had very little sleep. On top of that, we were under tornado warnings (go figure). I got to the testing center and was beyond convinced that I would get 75 and be out of there. Low and behold, I got 251 questions and almost 6 hours!!!! What did I do wrong again????!!! I left the exam in total tears and was convinced that I would be working at Taco Bell. All that ran through my head was MORE studying, failing, no marriage, no moving, and I am a complete LOSER! I have failed myself and my family once again.

I returned home and cried til I literally had no more tears:cry: I kept checking the BON to see a license number pop up and nothing.....On Sunday, I knew my results would be posting on pearson and was shaking in my knees to see those words FAILED once again. I decided to go online to check and could not remember my password! I freaked! So, I thought I would call. Well, to get results you need a land line and I only have a cell phone!! AHHHHHH I had talked to my friend and she jumped in her car to take me to her office where there was a phone there. Once we got there, I went straight to the bathroom and got sick because I couldn't take this any longer. I heard my fiance set the phone down and he said the best thing in the world.....................You PASSED!!!!!!!:bowingpur

The reason I have spent the time to post this long story and journey of mine is for those out there who are losing faith and questioning their role in nursing. PLEASE keep faith as I did! It was much easier for me to give up (which I did for awhile) but MUCH BETTER to KEEP FAITH! Studying, Kaplan, my fiance, this site and prayers are the reason I did this. When you go to the test, do not make the mistakes I did. Do not convince yourself this is the end of the world because it is not. If I can live in a bedroom with another person and 3 pets while serving tables ANYONE can get through their troubles! Everyone of you are going to be great nurses and we are a "family". Believe in yourself and keep the faith and everything will fall into place:nurse: