I really really need people's advice on my staying in nursing school
or not. I've always said I wanted to work in healthcare since I could remember, but after 2 semesters in nursing school, I just don't think this is the right fit for me anymore. I used to say I wanted to work in healthcare because I wanted to help people. Now I'm wondering if this isn't the way I'm supposed to be doing it.
I'm really really miserable in class and in clinicals. I also started working as an aid a few months ago, and I'm absolutely miserable there as well. It really scares me because I had thought this job would help me figure out what area of nursing I would like to specialize in (in a float pool, so I get a different floor nearly every assignment). The really scary thing is, is that I've hated every unit I've been assigned to.
The only classes I have enjoyed in the program have been pathophysiology. I liked learning about the diseases, but everything else? not so much. I'm not interested in the content and find myself doing other things in class.
I almost quit once before, but I told myself to hold on and see if it got better. "Maybe you'll like it better once you start going to the hospital and taking care of real patients." And so far, going to the hospital has been my least favorite part. I cry nearly every day about having to go to clinicals and to my shifts at work. And sometimes I will go hide in the bathroom and cry for a few minutes while I'm at there.
I know everyone says that every person in nursing school feels like quitting at least once and that it's normal to feel like that. I just still don't think that what I'm feeling is normal. It shouldn't be normal to cry every day and have anxiety attacks in the car before going into the hospital for your shift.
The only thing that is holding me back from quitting is all the time I've invested already in nursing school.
Anyway I guess my question is, based on everything I wrote, am I right to believe nursing isn't meant for me?