Okay, chin up young'un. News flash!!! Nursing school IS NOT like real nursing. Nursing school puts everything in to little blocks and steps and teaches theory that while based in a "sort of" reality is really far removed from what we do every day.
You will have times when you will doubt. Many of us had those periods. Only a few go through school just drop dead sure this is what they want and have had a "calling to the vocation". The rest of us sometimes get lost and become apprehensive and disillusioned. Afterall, you've worked so hard, you've tried so hard, and it just isn't like the books, or TV, or whatever you based your initial thoughts on. Clinicals aren't fun. You have these little written out care plans
and somehow the patients are suppose to perform to your taught theory, but they don't. And they don't in real life either. Real nursing is soooooo much better than school. Yes, patient's can be a pain, families can be a pain, doctor's are most certainly a pain and your coworker's can sometimes be snakes. But they aren't ALL that way. Remember, your patients are ill, in pain, upset, scared, their lives have been turned upside down. They may not want to play with nursing students, it doesn't mean you should think that this is not for you. You have one year to go. If you don't finish you will always wonder, what if? In life, it's not the things we did that we regret, it's the things we didn't do.
Most nurses are not mean and ugly. It's just that there are a few and they stand out so they rile us the most. Most nurses are just like you. Try to hang in there. This semester is almost over. You can do anything for just 6 more weeks. Change the way you are doing your work during clinicals. Work more with the paitents and less with your care plans. Heck, I was known to extrapolate a little into fiction with my care plans. Not all patients are going to cooperate. Hang on. I think you will be a better nurse and like it much more than how you feel right now. I was in your shoes. It will get better. You wouldn't have made it this far if you couldn't do it.