What happened that made everything finally "click," and you absolutely knew without a single doubt in your mind that you wanted to be a nurse? Mine happened tonight.
I've been working towards nursing for a year now.. two years of pre-req, but decided nursing a year ago. Well, my grandmother of soon to be 89 just got out of the hospital a week ago for fainting.. stood up, BP dropped. Last night, she apparently stood up, and without fainting, fell back down and broke her hip.. clean break at the epiphyseal plate. I know surgery, hip surgery, is high risk at her age. I went with my parents to see her tonight. I wasn't blown away with emotion or anything, but I "felt it." I felt the empathy and urge to help. With all the family there, I leaned down next to her whispering words and questions to her. I wanted to make sure she was as fine as could be in that circumstance. I was holding her hand. I was just trying to keep her aware. It had been seven hrs. since her last morphine injection. In a gasp, mumbled moan, she said her leg hurt. I got the nurses. I talked with her until she started drifting off from the meds. Barely mumbling, she said verbatim, "y'all let me go." She had finally opened her right eye a little. I truly heard her.. heard the pain and the call for help. I wasn't scared or sad.
I was simply as wide awake as I've ever been. I wish I were able to help her now. If she passes tomorrow, I just want it to be painless. She's been "off" since '95 when her husband died. I feel it's her time.
So tonight, I know, without a solitary doubt, that I want and will become a nurse. I'll never have the desire to be an MD. I want to be there to directly care for the patient--- the person.
When did you know?