It's been awhile since I've been on, just thought I would say Hi to everyone.
I've been going through some tough times lately, and thought I would come in and say hello.
Just a thought too....I know that we have ALL vented on occasion, and sometimes this is the only place that you can get someone to listen, or find someone that understands what you may be going through. Seems harmless enough, bad day at work, come home, vent online to your online friends, good way to get your feelings out, and before you know it, you've taken up a whole page, mostly because it feels good to get your feelings out, just by typing them on the keyboard. Vent about co-workers, pts, families, whatever the case may be. Using a Username, we don't really identify ourselves. But maybe someone looks at all of your posts, and puts the information together, that one time you say your from Missouri, then one time you say you have 3 kids, well you get the picture. Fellow co-workers could actually find a post on here, such as the one that I posted in September when I walked out of my job, they could copy it, and then take it to work with them, and share it with your old comrads, maybe even have a laugh about it. Your personal feelings, sharing them with your fellow nurses online that understand what you are going through, taken back to your previous place of employment to be viewed by all, refeuling a fire that should have been out so long ago.
Oh it could happen, and it did, just recently. After not working at this place for 7 months, my original post, my venting, was recently copied and taken there for all to see.
Sometimes when you vent, you don't even mean half of what you say, or later.............MAYBE 7 months later, your feelings have changed, your heart is not as hardened, you've gone through some really crappy times, especially since being unemployed for so long, and pounding the pavement for a job, just to be turned down time and time again, getting ready to lose your home, losing your heat in your house, going to food pantries and other places getting assistance just to stay alive, so different from the world you knew before. Maybe after someone has been through these things, maybe the stop holding grudges and just try to survive.
It sickens me that anything I ever posted here has ended up there. It just sickens me. I know its a public board, I know complete strangers read what I post, but to be sought out, especially after so long, well it just makes no since to me. A fellow co-worker that I thought of as a friend, has been doing her math, put 2 and 2 together and came up with ME. Little ole me all the way out here in Cyber nursing world. Am I wrong to be so upset? Am I just venting? I guess I just don't like being the topic of their conversations, again. I hope that if your reading this, and you know who you are, that you feel ashamed of what you have done, and think before doing next time.
