I need to be honest, because I have made a stupid, idiotic mistake and I don't know why I did this but I'm not going to make excuses and I feel like I need to come clean.
I didn't prepare adequately for the nclex, partially because I felt overwhelmed that I didn't know where to start, and partially because I was so anxious about a lot of things like finding a job, student loans, etc. Didn't do any reviews, answered some questions to study, but nothing like 50-100/per day. Feel free to yell at me, I deserve it. I'm just so disappointed in myself and beating myself up right now. I don't even have to use the pearson trick to know that I failed, because I didn't feel confident about the majority of the questions, and a part of me didn't want to pass because I didn't put any effort into studying, so I don't deserve to pass (nor did I feel like I deserved it), unlike a lot of the people on here who studied like crazy.
So I went in to test, thinking that at least I'll get an idea of how the test is, well, it shut off at 104 questions, there were some SATA and one dosage question. I didn't get any hotspot or ordering questions.
If anything positive came out of this, it's that I'm going to change and actually study my butt off this time. I just feel so ashamed and like the lowest thing on earth for this stupid thing I did. Again, feel free to yell at me.
But more importantly, this failure has taught me a lesson, and I'm going to study as hard as I can for the next time I take it. I really don't know what else to put here, but I just need to let this out. I've gotten some materials from a friend who passed (Saunder's comprehensive review with cd, and q&a), Hurst review, Davis q&a, nclex q&a made easy). Please give me advice. I'm not going to give up, especially over this dumb thing I did, because I know better now.
OP- first, Congrats!! Second, like a PP said- start working on resumes & getting a job.
No amount of studying will make you feel ready to be a 'nurse'! The only thing that can do that is to actually get out there & do it. And you will probably be a bit anxious & scared- and in my opinion, that's a good thing. That means you understand the seriousness of the job. But that's what orientation is for, to show you what to do so those feelings get less & less.
Congrats on passing!! Now, as has been said, none of us feel ready to start a job, but we do it and we learn as we gain experience. Nurses with years of experience will tell you that they don't know it all after that many years.
Start applying for those jobs and take the one you want.
I took my NCLEX today for the second time in over two years. No idea how I feel about how I did but I'm pretty sure the last question I answered was wrong and then it shut off. That was question 176. Nervous and anxious to know the outcome. Sadly California doesn't participate in the quick result.
I feel the same way with the OP. I took my nclex-rn a while ago and i only studied for a month but felt that it wasn't enough since my average practice question scores were always around 50-60%. My test shut off at 89 and when i got home...my friend told me to do the PVT and my credit card went through. I ve read that majority of the people who did the pvt and got a good pop up passed and some didn't. Regardless...im so anxious about it and its even my birthday in a few days. I don't mind "donating" the $200 to Pearson as long as I pass. I'll do the 2 day unofficial result. hopefully....i pass but if not...keep on going!
I took my nclex two days ago and I think I failed. It cut me off at 75. In Florida there's a site where you can check your nclex results and it says fail but my quick results aren't ready. It doesn't show my test date. It was blank until the morning after my test and showed failed.
I felt really good about it but afterwards I felt crap. I have a job and apartment lined up...I don't know what to do if I failed. I keep refreshing but nothing has come up. Does Pearson do quick results on Saturday? I tried the trick but used a fake card number. It was declined so I don't know what to do. I heard of people doing the trick, paying the $200 and still passing.
I just don't understand how I pass...I think it's just cause I know test strategies. Regardless, I'm still going to use the Nclex saunders book and what review materials I have to study more, because I can't get lazy just because I passed. I thank God and everyone on this thread that gave me support and tried to help me. I remember feeling so horrible when I started this thread.
I'm not going to waste this. Whether I passed really well or barely passed, I'm going to try to learn as much as I can. I started drug stem flashcards last night and reviewed it twice and again this morning, and I'm going to basically study as if I'm going to take the nclex, because...like I said, I don't know how I could've passed if I didn't study, so I feel like I have to 'make it up' somehow.
Relax. Breathe.
You got your license. Nursing school delivered on what it was supposed to; give you the minimum you needed to pass boards.
Take the weekend to decompress, stand in front of a mirror and practice saying "I am an RN." Keep practicing until you can say it without hyperventilating. [emoji106]
Monday, start putting in applications. When you accept an offer, you will get on the job training. Then you can keep up with pertinent information as your desire and the need arises.
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I took my nclex two days ago and I think I failed. It cut me off at 75. In Florida there's a site where you can check your nclex results and it says fail but my quick results aren't ready. It doesn't show my test date. It was blank until the morning after my test and showed failed.
I felt really good about it but afterwards I felt crap. I have a job and apartment lined up...I don't know what to do if I failed. I keep refreshing but nothing has come up. Does Pearson do quick results on Saturday? I tried the trick but used a fake card number. It was declined so I don't know what to do. I heard of people doing the trick, paying the $200 and still passing.
Using a fake card is a guaranteed decline as systems now check validity before proceeding with a charge. I accidentally transposed numbers for a transaction last night and was marked declined/invalid before I even hit submit.
Since your state participates in quick results pay the $7.95 for accurate results. Unless your BoN posts sooner. Yes quick results are available weekends. It's approximately 48 hours after you completed your exam
I failed. I can't believe I failed. I don't even know what to say right now. I had to cancel my apartment, cable, furniture, moving van...all of it. I had to tell my fiancee and my father. I have to tell the hospital that offered me a job that I can't accept it.
I felt the same way, that I failed and then ill prepared once I knew I had actually passed. As a nurse you will never stop learning. Just keep studying and reading. Be kind to yourself and you will develop confidence in time. Congratulations!
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OP- first, Congrats!! Second, like a PP said- start working on resumes & getting a job.
No amount of studying will make you feel ready to be a 'nurse'! The only thing that can do that is to actually get out there & do it. And you will probably be a bit anxious & scared- and in my opinion, that's a good thing. That means you understand the seriousness of the job. But that's what orientation is for, to show you what to do so those feelings get less & less.
So get out there & good luck!!