Took nclex rn today - certain I've failed

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I need to be honest, because I have made a stupid, idiotic mistake and I don't know why I did this but I'm not going to make excuses and I feel like I need to come clean.

I didn't prepare adequately for the nclex, partially because I felt overwhelmed that I didn't know where to start, and partially because I was so anxious about a lot of things like finding a job, student loans, etc. Didn't do any reviews, answered some questions to study, but nothing like 50-100/per day. Feel free to yell at me, I deserve it. I'm just so disappointed in myself and beating myself up right now. I don't even have to use the pearson trick to know that I failed, because I didn't feel confident about the majority of the questions, and a part of me didn't want to pass because I didn't put any effort into studying, so I don't deserve to pass (nor did I feel like I deserved it), unlike a lot of the people on here who studied like crazy.

So I went in to test, thinking that at least I'll get an idea of how the test is, well, it shut off at 104 questions, there were some SATA and one dosage question. I didn't get any hotspot or ordering questions.

If anything positive came out of this, it's that I'm going to change and actually study my butt off this time. I just feel so ashamed and like the lowest thing on earth for this stupid thing I did. Again, feel free to yell at me.

But more importantly, this failure has taught me a lesson, and I'm going to study as hard as I can for the next time I take it. I really don't know what else to put here, but I just need to let this out. I've gotten some materials from a friend who passed (Saunder's comprehensive review with cd, and q&a), Hurst review, Davis q&a, nclex q&a made easy). Please give me advice. I'm not going to give up, especially over this dumb thing I did, because I know better now.

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Specializes in Complex pedi to LTC/SA & now a manager.

How do you know you failed?

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Thank you for being the first to respond, JustBeachyNurse, I really appreciate that someone actually look time out of their day to look at my post.

I don't know for certain, but I just didn't feel confident during the test at all. After coming home, I looked up some questions (not exactly phrased like on the test), and I did get some right, but over all, I am very certain that I did not pass. Fact is, I didn't study nearly as much as my exit hesi indicated I needed, and I'm admitting that it was a foolish move on my part. But I've learned from this, and I'm not ever going to make that kind of mistake again... I'm just so confused on where I should start... I know I need to review content, but I also need to relearn how to 'answer' the questions.

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Specializes in Complex pedi to LTC/SA & now a manager.

The strong majority are convinced they failed when they walk out of the NCLEX. What state? Can you get quick results?

Step back. Relax. There is nothing you can do about it right now so do something nice for yourself until you get your results. You may surprise yourself

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IL, and yes we can get quick results. I can get it on wed, but I don't know if I want to, when I know I didn't do well. I guess the only thing I can do right now is start studying, like actually immersing myself this time, and try to look around the forums for advice on which review I should do. I just can't focus on anything else right now, but I guess the only relief I have is that I have no 'due date' anymore now that I took this exam...until I feel confident enough to reschedule again.

Thanks, I appreciate you trying to help, your signature quotes are rly thoughtful too. I bet you're a really great nurse : )

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Maybe your lack of studying is causing you to feel you failed the test also. You may of passed it, so good luck, wishing for good results on your test for you.

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Thank you cdsavannah59. But honestly, even if I did pass, I don't feel ready to step into the world of nursing because I didn't take this test as seriously as I should have. Even if I passed, would I be what is the most important - a safe nurse who knows her stuff?

I'm just caught inbetween about this. Part of me wants to pass, just so I can get rid of this panicky-anxiety feeling, but if I did, I wouldn't deserve it, because who honestly passes the nclex if they didn't study, even when their exit hesi indicated a real danger of failing?

Another part of me just wants to see what I already know, which is I failed. So I'm already using sander's cd to build a test plan for myself. But the thing that scares me the most is...even when you study as hard as you can, as 'smart' as one can, there is no guarantee they'll pass nclex, especially on their second try....I'm trying not to let this get me down, but the stories on here where people say they studied so hard and still DIDN'T pass, after trying like 13934 reviews, study books, etc really intimidate me..

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Specializes in Neuroscience.

You know where you went wrong, you admitted it, and you are already developing a plan. Pay for quick results and get a definitive answer, then go from there.

I think your post showed some real maturity. It's not easy to admit what we do wrong. I have my fingers crossed for you.

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Specializes in Complex pedi to LTC/SA & now a manager.

Did you graduate nursing school? If you passed the NCLEX first attempt you meet the qualifications of an entry level nurse. On the job orientation and training is needed to progress as a safe independent nurse. Your first job should offer orientation and preceptorship to help make the transition from school to independent licensed nurse.

Don't make your doubt into a self fulfilling prophecy.

In 48 hrs get your quick results or check the BoN website then make a plan to move forward whether to retake the NCLEX or start your job search.

Regardless of the result you cannot change it now

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Keep hope alive!

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Hey, so my quick results still aren't ready yet since it hasn't been 48 hrs, but as I am studying, a question came to me. This is for anyone who's failed the nclex for the IL board of nursing. When you reapplied to retake nclex, did you have to redo your Ed-Nur form, aka the paperwork that you send to your school to get the seal and they send it back? Also, what about fingerprints? Did you have to redo them?

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Honey if it shut off at 104 chances are extremely high you didnt fail. That test WANTS you to pass and will torture for a lot longer than that to prove you suck.

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