I need to be honest, because I have made a stupid, idiotic mistake and I don't know why I did this but I'm not going to make excuses and I feel like I need to come clean.
I didn't prepare adequately for the nclex, partially because I felt overwhelmed that I didn't know where to start, and partially because I was so anxious about a lot of things like finding a job, student loans, etc. Didn't do any reviews, answered some questions to study, but nothing like 50-100/per day. Feel free to yell at me, I deserve it. I'm just so disappointed in myself and beating myself up right now. I don't even have to use the pearson trick to know that I failed, because I didn't feel confident about the majority of the questions, and a part of me didn't want to pass because I didn't put any effort into studying, so I don't deserve to pass (nor did I feel like I deserved it), unlike a lot of the people on here who studied like crazy.
So I went in to test, thinking that at least I'll get an idea of how the test is, well, it shut off at 104 questions, there were some SATA and one dosage question. I didn't get any hotspot or ordering questions.
If anything positive came out of this, it's that I'm going to change and actually study my butt off this time. I just feel so ashamed and like the lowest thing on earth for this stupid thing I did. Again, feel free to yell at me.
But more importantly, this failure has taught me a lesson, and I'm going to study as hard as I can for the next time I take it. I really don't know what else to put here, but I just need to let this out. I've gotten some materials from a friend who passed (Saunder's comprehensive review with cd, and q&a), Hurst review, Davis q&a, nclex q&a made easy). Please give me advice. I'm not going to give up, especially over this dumb thing I did, because I know better now.
