Something has got to give. I work 11-7 in an LTC as the charge nurse. I cannot handle being up all night anymore. At first I think I was living on adrenaline. I never 'got used' to staying up all night. I know all the tips and tricks of daytime sleeping, white noise, black out curtains, melatonin etc. I can 'sleep' but its a light sleep. I usually sleep all day and most of the evening and still feel tired.I feel confused and disoriented.
Its affecting me mentally,I am becoming forgetful, and have trouble thinking scenarios and ideas through completely. I'm forgetting basic adjectives,my mind is just blank. I feel like a zombie,like I'm in a thick fog all the time. My joints are hurting,I feel dizzy, and nauseous frequently.I've lost 10 lbs since working here. I've also gotten really irrationally angry.I work a lot of OT and am called in constantly on my nights of-but I usually don't got in anymore on my nights off. I only get two consecutive days off every two weeks.
One of the worst things is that its affecting my home life. Not sleeping in the same bed as my SO and then sleeping most of the day and evening hasn't been the best situation.I'm usually in a bad mood,then just feel guilty. This is so weird but I am so so so lonely. I keep to myself at work doing my job (I'm the only nurse there,other co workers are CNAS) And when I have a night off,I'm awake all night while my SO is sleeping.
I've struggled with depression. I used to be on meds but have successfully been off of them for some time now. I realize that it is probably time to go to the dr and potentially get back on them. I personally think night shift is the worst shift for anyone with depression. The isolation and lack of sunlight etc etc just add up in a real negative way.I feel like I'm living in a constant nightmare.
Aside from the night shift blues, one manager who comes in the morning is particularly hateful and yells about the slightest thing in the morning. This is can be a whole other thread in itself about this manager and unprofessional behavior, ie telling us were are easily replaceable and throwing things around etc I feel like I'm going to vomit when the time draws near for dayshift to come in.
If I cannot find another job, I'm going to go part time at this place. Dayshift is full,evenings is hard with a child in school. (would never see them either)
Does anyone have any advice or insight?Am I doing the right thing?I'm scared because the economy is still rough and I cant completely quit right now.Thank you so much for listening.
Something has got to give. I work 11-7 in an LTC as the charge nurse. I cannot handle being up all night anymore. At first I think I was living on adrenaline. I never 'got used' to staying up all night. I know all the tips and tricks of daytime sleeping, white noise, black out curtains, melatonin etc. I can 'sleep' but its a light sleep. I usually sleep all day and most of the evening and still feel tired.I feel confused and disoriented.
Its affecting me mentally,I am becoming forgetful, and have trouble thinking scenarios and ideas through completely. I'm forgetting basic adjectives,my mind is just blank. I feel like a zombie,like I'm in a thick fog all the time. My joints are hurting,I feel dizzy, and nauseous frequently.I've lost 10 lbs since working here. I've also gotten really irrationally angry.I work a lot of OT and am called in constantly on my nights of-but I usually don't got in anymore on my nights off. I only get two consecutive days off every two weeks.
One of the worst things is that its affecting my home life. Not sleeping in the same bed as my SO and then sleeping most of the day and evening hasn't been the best situation.I'm usually in a bad mood,then just feel guilty. This is so weird but I am so so so lonely. I keep to myself at work doing my job (I'm the only nurse there,other co workers are CNAS) And when I have a night off,I'm awake all night while my SO is sleeping.
I've struggled with depression. I used to be on meds but have successfully been off of them for some time now. I realize that it is probably time to go to the dr and potentially get back on them. I personally think night shift is the worst shift for anyone with depression. The isolation and lack of sunlight etc etc just add up in a real negative way.I feel like I'm living in a constant nightmare.
Aside from the night shift blues, one manager who comes in the morning is particularly hateful and yells about the slightest thing in the morning. This is can be a whole other thread in itself about this manager and unprofessional behavior, ie telling us were are easily replaceable and throwing things around etc I feel like I'm going to vomit when the time draws near for dayshift to come in.
If I cannot find another job, I'm going to go part time at this place. Dayshift is full,evenings is hard with a child in school. (would never see them either)
Does anyone have any advice or insight?Am I doing the right thing?I'm scared because the economy is still rough and I cant completely quit right now.Thank you so much for listening.