I am at a loss for words. I graduated school in may 2019 and landed an adult inpatient med/surg telemetry position. I was so miserable due to my preceptor bullying me and high patient loads that I quit in less than 3 months. I was unemployed for a couple months before landing an inpatient pediatric med surg position. I have completed nurse residency here and am able to do my job unlike the first place...but I am still so miserable. I’ve hated nursing from the beginning and people said it would get better. It never did and I’m still so miserable. I can’t switch units until June and I’m feeling so depressed. Wake up thinking “why am I living to do this” ...I am usually a very happy and positive person but ever since I became a nurse I’ve been so depressed and not like myself. When will this get better? It’s been over a year and I still hate my life. Beginning to think I shouldn’t have been a nurse at all