Here I am, a brand new nurse (licensed October 3rd) and I'm ready to give up....
I work in LTC, on nights 7p-7a.
I wasn't oriented, just thrown in (to the dogs, as my DON said once).
As all places, we are extremely short staffed with CNA's. Just found out, there's been alot of complaints about me. I guess I don't answer call lights in a timely fashion. Sorry~ but when I am busy doing something, and there are 2 CNA's on the floor or in the breakroom, I feel it is their job. If I am not busy, I do answer those lights. I help whenever asked....even if I am busy.
and...
Complaints about treatments not being done on time. When I am the only nurse for 64 residents (which I am ALOT!), how many people am I supposed to be? (Been working by myself since I have been licensed only 2 weeks...)
and...
Just recently found out also that a nurse on days that I THOUGHT was my friend has been stabbing me in the back with all these little tidbits she can find. Writes little notes to the DON, complaining about things I don't get done. (She works day shift and has recently become a RN. Personally~ I think she's changed since getting her RN. Some others have come to me and they think so, so I know it isn't just me.) It's not just me she does this to, it's a few of us, I guess, but why not come to me and ask me? (Such as once, I was asked why I hadn't changed a catheter, and it wasn't time in the TX book, so I didn't!) Got my butt in a sling over that one, too! Lectured about how it's due every 30 days or so.... yea, I knew that....so why hadn't I done it? Because it wasn't marked in the TX book that it was due! Still... somehow, my fault.
Got my first write up the other night cause I left insulin in the cart instead of putting it in the fridge. I took it, cause I knew it was my fault, and maybe that's why I'm writing this...that's just the icing on the cake for me. (The new RN above reported this one too....AND the catheter change.....)
I am just so sick of this. I would go elsewhere, but the pay is decent, and there's really no where else in this little town to go. I feel like I am being scrutinized every time I step in the door anymore. Aren't you supposed to feel comfortable where you work in order to be at your peak performance? I feel like I can't do anything right. That everything I do is going to be questioned or double checked.
Sorry guys~ I just needed to vent to someone who knows what it's like.. Hubby tries, but he just don't understand.
Any suggestions or advice? I hate going to work anymore.....