I start Nursing I in January, with this semester wrapping up with a final tomorrow. My mom is suffering with dimentia and this weekend was admitted to the hospital in A-fib with CHF. She accused her husband of abuse and there is risk because taking care of her has been so stressful. She is totally dependent for assistance with all ADL's. The family is looking to me to assume a major role in management of mom's care now since I am entering the profession and also oversee the nursing care provided while she's inpatient. In south Florida the patient census is busting at the seams and the nurses know I'm a nursing student. I've been feeding her, transfering her to chair, helping with diapering, been left with the responsibility of getting her to take her po meds, basic hygiene and trying to calm her down using therapeutic communication. I've arranged for case management and placement to a rehabilitation facility. This is so stressful and I was hoping for a bit of R&R before getting into my first semester but taking care of mom now seems to be my responsibility. A lot of me in the role of daughter has turned off and me as nurse has turned on. Everyone else in the family has turned to emotional jelly. The opposite thing happened to me. I got very objective... almost like this was another patient and not my mom, seeing things from all angles. I started preparing my own nursing diagnoses and care plan. This has been a baptism by fire. I feel like if I can handle this, I can handle anything first semester has to throw at me.I'm not sure I'm reacting in a healthy way to my mother's deteriorating condition but I don't want to stop to figure that out. I'm afraid that if I do, I'll lose the ability to give mom and the family what is needed.