Please PRAY.. I Failed...BUT

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I am heading to pearsonvue in T-20 minutes to go and defeat the beast! I plan to be there all 6 hours and all 265 questions. Lord willing, I will survive!!!

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Specializes in Obstetrics, Women's Health.

You got this! Praying for you!

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You got this! Praying for you!!!

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WHOOT Whoot!! I couldn't wait to get home to let anyone who saw my OP that I finished with time to spare. Holy WOW!! Pass or Fail... I am finally gonna say this publicly. This was my 3rd attempt!

In the previous 2 attempts... The first time I 100% knew I ran out of time...but held on to a lot of hope that some miracle would happened and I would add to the VERY SMALL % of those who pass on the R-O-O-T rule.

2nd time: I honestly was not sure if I finished the exam when the screen went blue or if I ran out of time.

*Of note (bc I searched everywhere in the past)....

---1st attempt (100% knew I ran out of time, bc I got a lil' window pop-up that said time expired,exam ended) This pop was clear as day bc it popped up while I was working on a question. And I had to click "end" or maybe it said "ok" before my screen turned blue and then brought me to the exit survey questions.

---2nd attempt: I had just finished a question. Screen went blue at the exact same time the lil pop-up window appeared... I did NOT have to click anything on the lil window before I was presented with the exit survey. For the record this was AWEFUL bc I truly did not know if I ROOT or if I literally finished in the nick of time...and too be honest I still couldn't say for sure if I failed bc the computer calculated confidently that I had passed or failed at the moment.... or if once again this failed result was determined using the R-O-O-T rule...

On today's exam, I went in there 100% prepared to use all 6 hours and all 265 questions, and TRULY I PRAYED so much for the endurance to keep my head in the game and asked God to please at least let me answer all 265 questions with at least 3 minutes to spare. I Really wanted to know that I did or did not fall into the R-O-O-T rule.

So at question 30-34 (somewhere in there) I got a pop up for the scheduled first break. So 2 hours already gone and at least 230 questions to go. I raised my hand and took my break. (I was dancing in my chair I had to pee so bad lol)... Went on my break at some of my tuna sandwich (and saved a few bites for my next break). Drank some Gatorade and OJ and took a few bites of a CLIF bar. All the while, I was dancing (literally) trying to keep my self pumped up and determined.

I went back to my lil' test cube and was presented with a new question... ANXIETY kicked in as I looked at that darn timer. I quickly shook it off, took my hand off of the mouse, sat back in my chair and prayed...Opened my eyes, grabbed my lil' marker and wrote "FAITH" at the top of my board, circled it, and then as I put my hand back on the mouse I thought to myself, "Alright God, we got this!

Questions came and went, I looked at the question counter at #66, and notes I had 3hours and 20-40 mins to complete all 265 questions... felt a lil' panicked and thought to myself maybe I'll finish at 75.. but then oh my Gosh, I don't want that I don't want to finish at 75 just to be done... (In the past 2 attempts, I prayed and prayed for the darn exam to end)...Anywho, I was on question 74 and I seriously sat there with answer already selected... my mind wondered as I tried to make another option work... Admittedly, I was procrasting, I wasn't ready for question number 75... On question 75, I felt like.... Hmmmm Lol I honestly can't even tell you how I felt...I guess mainly I recalling being a lil' nervous (a lot less anxiety than that of #74)... I hit submit and Got question #76....

God totally stepped in as at this moment, before even reading the question, I silently chuckled to myself, "Alright NCLEX you wanna challenge me with all 265 questions...BRING IT!! I looked at the answer and thought, seriously, I must be doing bad, the answer seemed so obvious...thinking to myself. "whatever, just answer the question...I will have many more questions to prove myself... Selected my answer and without any hesitation clicked submit, I did a lil bouncing in my chair.. Bring it NCLEX, Bring it!" In the midst of my bounce, the screen went straight BLUE!!! And there was no lil pop-up window!!... Thinking "What the heck are you serious, my computer glitched.... I looked back at the pearsonvue testing window (behind me), like UM can u come fix my computer.... Then the screen (still blue) said "processing or loading results"... My Hand still never lifted from the mouse, I sat there ( I don't think I was breathing, and a maybe some PVCs)... The exit survey popped up.... At this point I couldn't even read any other word than "NCLEX." and only bc it was in bold font LOL...

As I checked out with pearsonvue, I was all bubbly and talkative.... I walked out and down the hall, (maybe 15 ft) before I stood at the top of the stairs, and then it hit me like a tidal wave. I fought the tears until I made it outside, where I sat on the bench, waiting for my boyfriend to come and pick me up. Let me tell you guys/gals... I BAWLED!! Like hard-core, body slouched over, head in my legs bawled!!! And all I could think was... " I don't think I failed." Cried harder and prayed harder... please Lord let this be true....after telling Him, repeatedly how much " I want this!" I simply prayed that he stay with me and guide me whatever the result may be...And whatever the result may be; If I failed, I know He will guide me; If I Passed I know He will guide me.

Anywho... LOL sorry this is a long long reply but like I said I couldn't wait to get home and check AN to see & respond to anyone who prayed for me. Whatever the result, this is all for Him! I owe my life to Him!

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Interesting story. :) I have a positive feeling about your exam. Keep us posted! I'm excited for your news! :D

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Thank you AngelAsherah! My feeling is in and out... Mainly I am really pumped... but I then I have a moment where I become worried and find myself thinking "what-if"...

**Side note to all who read my long ramble..sorry for all the typos. I blame the adrenaline:yes:

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This was a wonderful testimony of your faith PayitForwardHolistic!! Looking forward to hearing about the outcome........keep your head up.:yes:

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Stay Positive my Dear. I am praying for you.

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Specializes in critical care.

Congratulations on this victory!!!! Did you try the Pearson view trick?

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Specializes in medical assistant/office.

Try the trick...I know u passed!!!

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I must know how this turns out!

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