Hi! This is my first post so bare with me I’m a new grad nurse who has been working on a busy/understaffed Medsurg/Nephrology/ Transplant floor for a little over 5 months. I worked as a CNA in a level 2 NICU for a year before this job and loved it I really want to work in the NICU or ICU but I was told you need at least 2 years of medsurg experience before you qualify for that kind of position. I am more than willing to put in the time and do whatever it takes to be considered for a position on either of those units. I knew going into medsurg that I wasn’t going to love it but it is a great place to start to build upon my nursing skills. I love nursing and I have learned a lot on the current floor that I am on. Over the past couple of months however I’ve started to feel really burnt out. My coworkers would describe me as positive, caring and someone who is always willing to help help her coworkers and patients. Lately though I find myself just feeling exhausted and experiencing emotional burnout towards my patients and others. I’m always willing to help others when they are drowning but I find that I never get that in return. Management has started to float me to other units with little to no support even though as a new grad I’m not supposed to be floated unless I’ve been an RN for a year. Recently I’ve been floated to a unit where I was assigned to a patient who was homeless schizophrenic/aggressive/ IVDU with a large spinal abscess. He constantly tried to climb out of bed and I was told her couldn’t have a sitter because we were understaffed so I was to be his sitter. I was also assigned to 4 other acutely Ill patients who needed constant attention as well. I couldn’t leave the other patients room because it was a safety risk and there was no CNA so I also took on all those responsibilities. He became unresponsive at one point in the night because he had been stashing methadone in his room and had been taking it in addition to all the other narcotics and benzos I had been giving him for his withdawl symptoms and pain management. He continued to have these unresponsive events through out the nights that I took care of him and I had little to no support from other nurses on the floor or the doctors (who wanted to wait for the day shift team before intervening or changing orders). It was a very unsafe situation for all the patients I was taking care of. I felt like I wasn’t able to care for my other patients the way I normally do. I had little to no time to look through my other patient’s charts and complete my med passes. I ended up staying two hours late every day to chart. I usually have all my charting done on time so this has been especially frustrating. I usually give good reports and I understand my patients really well but since I haven’t had the time to write stuff down I end up giving the bare minimum to the nurses taking over. I’ve had nurses yell at me and chew me out during report. I even had one who walked away midway through report and complain to another nurse while I was sitting next to her that I didn’t know when the patients LBM was while rolling her eyes at me. Unfortunately for the last two months this has been how most of my assignments go and I’m starting to feel really burnt out. We have a lot of homeless/ IVDU on my floor currently so I spend most of my shift being screamed at by them. I genuinely try to connect with them and help but I always end up being verbally abused by them or having them tell other staff members that I am neglecting them because their pain mediation is 5 minutes late. my nurse manager has also been making mistakes in my schedule. For example I picked up a shift to try and help out and I was scheduled to work from 7p-11:30p. I work night shift so working another shift after this one isn’t a big deal. My nurse manager scheduled me to work 7a-7p the next day. When I emailed her about it she basically told me to suck it up. I didn’t get out of work till 1am and I am expected to work at 7am the same day. These schedule mistakes are very common and sometimes I end up working 4-5 12 hour shifts in a row with the same acute patient assignment. I hate complaining and I usually never complain. I’ve really tried to make the most of my current situation. I hate feeling this burnt out when I am only 5 months into my nursing career. it makes me feel like a terrible nurse. I also feel like I’m not really making a difference in the lives of my patients. I feel more like a vending machine pumping out medications which is not the nurse I want to be. I feel bad delegating task to my CNAs who are swamped and overworked so I usually don’t. I also feel bad not being able to do everything that my patients ask for and feel like I’m letting them down. I really want to help my patient and I’m looking for suggestions on how to feel less burnt out so that I can be the best nurse I can be. Thanks for reading and sorry for the long rant! ?