Never would have made it without you (GOD)

VNNSA · May 14, 2008

I'm not getting ready for RN test yet, but I'm preparing for the PN. Today I have been so emotional thinking about whether I'm ready and speaking to God that I know this victory is mine. I just don't know how soon He is going to let me have it. I take it Monday and not doing to good on Kaplan QBank. Thoughts of anxiousness and stress of restudying for second test crossed my mind and couldn't sleep last night. I prayed for God to take those burdens and give me of His yoke that is lighter. I fell asleep after, but this morning after yet a worse grade on sample test, I can't help but worry. Reading this testimony comforts me and reminds me God is n control.

JLnurse4life · May 14, 2008

CONGRATULATIONS Cash! WOW what an inspiring story. I have failed the NCLEX twice and will be preparing to take it again for the third time. I am glad to have read your testimony today as it put a smile on my face, knowing that if you have faith and trust God he will bring you through anything. So, again thanks for sharing your story and good luck on your new journey as a RN. :yeah:

Esther2007 · May 14, 2008

Congratulations, God is awesome!!!

Letjackson987RN · May 14, 2008

:ancong!::clpty:

cash..congratulations!

it really inspire me, your testimony. yes, god is always there, though sometimes we felt like he abandoned us. but he won't, he'll never abandon us. i also graduated last may'07..took the test this jan'08..and failed with 265 questions. it's been like months, and i'm really down, felt like a failure. everyone's trying to cheer me up. but no..i cried all night praying that he'll hear me out. my cry and my plea. i even went outside state just to be with my sister and calmly motivate myself to get back in. everone around me is pressure. yes, satan strike us in our weaknesses. and it says..worry and fear is the greatest enemy of faith. i took the test again last monday..and now i'm waiting for the result. i know god grant what our heart desires. i'm waiting and praying. yes, god is an awesome god! god bless in your decisions, for which path to take in your future career!:)

LynseyEB · May 15, 2008

CONGRATULATIONS CASH !!! WAY TO GO!!:clphnds:

rosstat2 · May 15, 2008

Congratulations, Cash:dancgrp:

georgiesmouse · May 16, 2008

wow, wonderfull story cash. it made me cry. i was teary eyed when i read your story. that was inspiring. i plan on taking the nclex this year. i really am praying too hard to pass. i remembered when i took the local board exams, i never fail to go the adoration chapel in our church. and i passed, first take! i think its really faith. faith can really move mountains.

congratulations cash!!! im very happy for you! god bless! :nurse: :lol2:

Luvelyone · May 17, 2008

praise god! i just want you to know, that your post has inspired me. like you, i have had so many trials and tribulations...not with the nclex, but all through nursing school, which i just finished and graduated last week. i was sure that i was going to fail my last class, but i realized that i needed to do all that i could to study, and leave the rest in god's hands. i usually would take a xanax or just have a meltdown when i had a test coming up, but for the final, the only thing i did was study and pray. i was in a position that i needed to score a 77 on a final that was worth 60% of the course grade; and the lord blessed me to do just that. like you said, i had prayed all semester and continued to struggle, but he stepped in right on time.

my current prayer is that god blesses me to pass my boards and become a nurse that will be a blessing to others. one that will not forget to treat others with compassion and caring while providing competent care.

blessings to you.

marvin sapp said it best because i never would have made it without the jesus. this is going to be a long post because i have a testimony. i graduated may 2007. i took the kaplan review class with the online question and scheduled my exam for june. i had 75 questions and failed. i was shocked. never failed anything before, i have a masters degree what could possibly be wrong. ok was hurt but i got myself together and started studying again. took the test again august had 75 questions again, surely i have passed this time. not failed again. ok at this point i was totally devasted. all my friends were calling me to give suppor and comfort. i know that god would not leave his child. satan was truly working on my faith. i really wanted to just go out to the freeway and get hit head on. i was numb. i started reading all the encouraging words here and how others prevailed after failing. i got learningtxt from online course for 5wks along with saunders and started to study all over again. everyday i was doing question. scheduled for my test again and had 265 questions and again failed. omg what is going on. at this point i was praying and praying and praying. lord do you hear my cry!!! satan kept messing with my mind but i kept my faith (what i had left) in god. i knew he was trying to speak to me in a might way. i was in an emotionally abusive relationship with my fiancee and i knew i need to leave but could not muster up the strength. january took the test for the fourth time, confident i was going to pass this time. i failed again 265 questions. ok now what!! please give me the # to the mental institute. so i kept praying. all the while he kept telling me to give up taking the test and was not supportive at all. never did he comfort me or give me encouraging words. so i fasted and prayed for god to please give me the strength to get out of this and encourage myself. trust me just when you think the sun will not come out behind the clouds it will. i said i will not study again for this test. i felt like i had all the knowledge i need, so 2 wks before i took it on may 8 i did kaplan q bank and that was it. i prayed everyday for god to show me what i need to study again so i would be ready and the spirit kept telling me to look over the endocrine system. that is what my test mostly consisted of. just want everyone to know that god is good all the time and he may not come when you want him but he is an on time god. keep the faith and encourage yourself when nobody will and you will make it. it took me 5 times to pass. i had 75 questions this time and today i found out i am an rn!!!!

live2help · May 17, 2008

Congratulations Cash,

Your story really put tears into my eyes. You know, testimonies like yours is really what people like me needed to hear. I was and still is a christian but i wasn't a true believer or a true christian until NCLEX changed my life. I am a very sunday believer. I go to church every sundays, i read bible every day, and i pray (my usual prayers) every morning and night. But i know truly my NCLEX experience made me bow down on my knees and go closer to the living GOD. It is a long story:

I graduated last year, May 22, 07 and worked as a graduate nurse for few months until the hospital that i was working at required me to take the boards within six months of my graduation. So i went and took the boards on Oct, w/ 75 questions and found out that i failed. So, I called the hospital and reported on my failure status and left the job.

From that point on, i felt like i was a failure. In front of my parents, friends, community, and every one who i talk to. I avoided everything in my life. But decided to take the boards again in Dec. But, i felt like i was never ready to take it again and not only that, i didn't want to fail again.... so i postponed to Jan, 08. When Jan came, I still wasn't ready, so again, i postponded to February and took it at the end of Feb with 265 questions.

For the second time, i found out that i failed again. Then, i realized that i will never pass this exam. I don't know what to study anymore. The feeling of being a failure really troubled me. I was depressed for so many weeks/months. Felt like killing myself so many times and many times, i tried too, but i failed. Every time i try to hurt myself, someone inside me always kept pulling me away from harming myself.

I am a very emotional person and this test really made me even more and i kept telling myself that i wasn't good for anything except to eat and sleep.

But life truly changed after April, on a sunday, after hearing Joel Osteen preaching, I decided that GOD has greater plan for my life and his blessing will be poured in HIS due season and he said few things to touch my life. And then and there, i humbled my life and gave it to HIM. Ever since then, i decided to fast and spend some time in prayer (not usual prayer but a true, broken hearted prayer) everyday. I finally understood that, i am not living in this world because i wanted to, but because, GOD wanted me to.

Few weeks ago, it was like someone was talking inside me, Do you know it took you 2 NCLEX exams for you to knill down and submit to GOD. I thought to myself, wow. it is true. If i had passed the first time, I know i would have never come closer to GOD. Second time, It made me get little closer to him but it was enough for HIM. GOD WANTED ME COMPLETELY. Now, i am praying everyday, fasting every day and meditating on HIS words and spreading the gospel of GOD to others. Psalm 130:14 "I will praise thee, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made, marvellous are thy works and that my soul knowth right well."

Not only that, I am not worried about the NCLEX anymore. This NCLEX changed my life. I realize that GOD is my creator. He controls everyone in this world. HE sees you and me and he sees our future b/c he plans it. He does everything according to HIS will. Some people may pass easily, and some not. But i believe that, GOD HAS GREATER PLANs FOR MY LIFE than just NCLEX-RN exam. So I submit my life to him Everyday. Let his will be done upon my life what ever it is. (if his plan for me is not to be a nurse but do his works, i guess i plan on doing that).

Two days ago, i was suppose to take the boards with my friends, but some how the direction of my life was changed and couldn't take the boards with them. They called me after the boards and told me how they both got 75 questions and truly, we all thought they passed the boards. Because they both studied so much and so hard. Today morning, they called and told me that they failed. It was very shocking. But I know my GOD will be with me whether i pass or fail next time when i take it (June). If i fail, I am not planning to kill myself, but i am still going to hold me faith and continue to wait on HIS time and live for HIM.

But i truly believe that one day "GOD will move the mountains for me" and all i need to do is "wait patiently and continue to have the faith GOD has built in my life."

In psalms 146:14 - 19 - The Lord upholdeth all that fall, and raiseth up all those that be bowed down. V.19 - He will fulfill the desire of them that fear him, he also will hear their cry and will save them."

I know, some people who are reading might not believe in GOD and might think, please, we don't need GOD to take an exam. But i realize one thing from coming into allnurses.com that, majority of those who passed or failed always kept their faith in GOD and those who passed, always thanked GOD first and they realized that there is a greater power behind in everything that we do in life and that is definetly LORD JESUS, WHO DIED ON THE CROSS FOR YOU AND ME."

MAY GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU WHO TOOK THE EXAM AND PASSED AND WHO HASN'T TAKEN THE EXAM BUT PLANNING TO OR WHO HAS TAKEN THEN EXAM AND FAILED LIKE I DID ( i am keeping all of you in my prayers). DON'T LOOSE HOPE & MAY GOD SHOWER HIS BLESSINGS UPON YOU AND ME!!!

22angie, LPN · May 17, 2008

congratulation to you and god is good all the time. trust in him he won't put more on you than you can bare just trust him. :yeah: :clpty:

kychaw · May 18, 2008

CONGRATULATIONSSSSSS............YOU WERE STRONG!

mcknis · May 19, 2008

Congratulations again for completing the NCLEX! It takes much work, ut will be worth it, I am determined. Faith in God is truly an awesome thing and one that needs to be spread to others. Believe me, others do see it, whether they admit it or not. I have 26 days until graduation and will be studying hard core until I take my boards, but God willing, He will allow me to pass it the first time, no matter the amount of questions I get. God will never leave you, nor forsake you, just keep the faith and He will lead you! Congrats again, and good luck being a new RN!