I received the news today that after my second failure I'm officially kicked out of my nursing program. 2.5 years of my life, completely gone to waste. Two traumatic family situations and the several mental conditions, debilitating and untreated ADHD and social anxiety, that I stupidly didn't seek help for were what made school 10x more difficult for me and what ultimately led me to fail. I failed the same course again, Med-Surg, both times for similar reasons. The first time taking it one of my parents unexpectedly was hospitalized which took a great mental toll on me. Despite putting my all into the second exam and final, it still wasn't enough to put me into a passing grade. My second time retaking the course, being this semester, I came into the course ready to start again, I absolutely did not want to fail again. However, a very close family member unexpectedly passed away during my retake of the course and this affected me and my whole family even worse than my parent's hospitalization from the semester before. This was my first real time dealing with a family member's death and I took it hard. The timing of this couldn't have came at a worse time, but I pushed through until the end and took my final the other day. Sadly, I didn't pass, I was 5 points away from passing, thus leading me to fail the course again and me being forced out of my program as we are only allowed one retake of a course and if we fail again we cannot return to the program. My family and friends were my biggest supporters and cheerleaders during my nursing school journey and now I don't have the heart to tell them that this is the end for me, I'm not graduating in December or anytime soon. I worked SO hard in my prerequisite courses and received straight A's because I knew just how competitive community college nursing programs are here in California and I was thankfully accepted into 3 different programs. Nursing school was always a bit of a struggle for me, but I did decent my first 2 semesters earning all B's. This ONE class absolutely ruined me, and for some reason always brought along unexpected tragedies into my life. Right now I just feel so guilty and devastated about my future. I want to continue my lifelong dream of being a nurse, I know that without a doubt in my mind. But now that I've failed out of a nursing program I've heard that this blacklists me from even being considered for other programs. Right now I'm REALLY considering starting at West Coast University (WCU) as I know they'll accept me even with this failure, but the tuition cost is daunting and I, or my family are in no position to be paying for it, I would essentially be paying for the tuition entirely with student loans. Me and my family live paycheck to paycheck so I'd have no choice. I'm also considering applying one more time, this fall, for CC nursing programs. I want to still utilize my 4.0 science GPA as from what I've seen some programs have a 5 year recency for them. I hate how I would have to study again for the TEAS test, but I will give it my all. I got 87.5% on the last version and that's what got me into my programs the first time. Has anyone dealt with failure like this with being kicked out of their nursing program before? Specifically a CA program (LA area to be exact), and were then able to be accepted into a new one? Any advice or words in general would be greatly appreciated.