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I just failed my NCLEX

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It is now 1:00 am and I just want to make a post. I graduated in Dec 13 and I just took my NCLEX 13 hrs ago. I ran out of time and only made it to 200 questions. I immediately knew that I did not pass when my test ended. I went home and cry and cry and cry my eyes out. Then I checked the PVT and cry again because what I predicted was right. I did not even have the gut to tell my parents, but they knew anyways because they saw me moping on my bed and crying my eyeballs out. My face is aching from all the crying. I should not have made the mistake for waiting this long to take this test.

I actually got my ATT at the end of March due to the whole change of system from the board. My parents was pushing me to get a job, and I guess I was lucky to get offered a part time as a caretaker for an elder woman. I was thinking that I can earn a little bit of money while studying for this test. I registered for my test in early May, but things got in the way and I continued to push back the date until now. It was clearly a mistake because I actually did not fully study until the last three weeks before the test. I actually took the Kaplan class course back in January and felt it was very helpful. The Kaplan QBank and trainers made me feel comfortable enough that I know I am ready for it. I am a very bad test taker and to tell you guys the truth, I struggled a lot in nursing school. I did not have high hope to pass at 75 questions, but was hoping to pass this test.

Now that my mind has clear, I have several things I want to ask. Firstly, can someone tell me the process of reapplying? I look at it briefly, but not sure yet, from what I know, I need to pay both the exam fee and the BRN app fee again. However, do I have to go through the whole process of getting transcripts and finger printing for the application again? Secondly, how long would you recommended to wait before the next test? I know that we cannot take it again until 45 days after, but is it too soon? Lastly, I really want to know how you guys can cope with this. I feel like a major dumb, studpid, failure! My school has the NCLEX passing rate of 98% every semester, and I happen to be that 2% who failed. I know that soon enough, my classmate will find out. How do you guys deal with being so embarrassed for not passing? I don't have much close friends in my class, and my besties passed on their first time. I have no one to talk to because my friends does not understand how I really feel, and no one in my family understand the hardship of being a nurse and taking the freaking NCLEX. I doubt myself so much that I don't know if I can do this. I don't have much family support either because I just cannot get my parents to understand how hard it is for me. For them, they want me to pass this test quickly and get a job as fast as I can so that I can buy them a house and get my family out of the situation we are living in. I know it is my responsibility to care for my parents because they have been supporting me through out my entire college years, but the pressure just make it worse. I felt like I committed a crime and now feeling so guilty when I think about my parents. I also don't know how to talk to my relatives when they ask "Did you have a job yet?" "Did you have your license?". I don't know what to say because failure in my family seems to be such a big thing. Now, everything is just delayed while all of my friends are happily working at their dreamed job.

I love this profession so much and I am committed to it. Though, today, for a moment, I felt that may be Nursing is not for me. I felt that the world just ended or fell of top of me and I am forever doomed!

I know that Nursing is what I chose and what I really love. However, I just wish I have the support that I need. I just wish people can understand.

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RNfindingherway has 1 years experience as a BSN, RN.

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First off wait for your official results. Please stop patronising yourself. Get all this family pressure of your back. You are not a failure NG, you simply didn't pass the NCLEX on your first try. You didn't kill a priest, in other words, you didn't commit a crime. Failure is not final. Infact many people went through and is still going through it. Be strong my sister/brother. You will make it. I understand how you are feeling but you will get over it and jump right back on the horse again. You are a Nurse. Nurses are fighters. Please tell no one when you are going to take it next time. Please take the pressure off of you. On another note, I don't know in what City you live because everyone have their different rules. Here in NY you can just pay Pearson vue $ 200.00, call the boards of nursing for a new ATT you will receive it in less than two hours. You are free to take it over again in 45 days. In NY you can take the NCLEX many times until you pass. Don't wait to long to take it over again. My Dear, you will be ok. If you believe in the Power of Prayer pray like you never did before. Tell God how you're feeling and He will comfort you and strengthened you for the NCLEX journey. He have a plan for your life Jeremiah 29V11. Also remember, the race is not to the swift nor the battle to the strong but to those who endures to the end.

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((((ngocupham))))

Listen to Haddasah16. You are not a failure!!! You will study more and take the thing and pass it the next time or the next time.

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Stick with it. I failed my first time. I gave myself a brief moment to grieve and it's ok to give yourself that time. Don't loose focus; it made me more determine to pass. The first time I wasn't focus and didn't take it seriously. The second time I got mad and was determined not to let that happen again. The best book to have when preparing is a book called "Delegation, Prioritization for Nurse Management." By Linda (last name escape me but start with a "M") The title is similar to this, just Google this name and you will find this book. This book is as close to the NCLEX as you will ever find. You want these kinds of questions and select all that applies questions. These two are the kinds of questions you need to pass the NCLEX. Also make cards whenever you get an answer wrong and understand why the question is right. Also get a Sauder's NCLEX book. Do as many questions as possible, make note cards and make studying for the next NCLEX a part-time job. I passed shortly after the 45 days and knew i knocked it out of the park. You will too if you get those books. Remember the more select all that applies and the delegation questions you get, the better your chances of passing the nclex. Also keep this in mind, the NCLEX is not out to trick you; it wants to pass you. The test is just trying to figure out if you know what you're doing as a new safe nurse.

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I created something for myself. I gave it to my friend and she passed on her first try with her test stopping after 75 questions. My test stopped at 115. She said it is worth its weight in gold

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akulahawkRN has 5 years experience as a ADN, RN, EMT-P and specializes in Emergency Department.

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First off, you need to forgive yourself for all your "failure" transgressions, if not forgive yourself, at least relegate it to the past because you can't change it, only learn from it. So, I'm gathering you're probably from California... as you're describing the retake process. Yes you'll have to pay the BRN for their blessing to retest and then to Pearson Vue for another exam.

First, you can't take the exam for 45 days. In a short while you'll get your Candidate Performance Report" and that will tell you the areas they found that kept you from passing. Once you get that report, you should work on those areas it identified. The fact that you went 200 questions is actually a sign that you were right at/near passing level pretty consistently, so you're almost at the point of passing now. If it had shut off at 75 and you'd failed, that would have been very definitive. So that's actually a positive thing for you.

During the exam, slow down, breathe, read the question and answer it in your head first. Then read the answers. If something matches, you're on the right track as far as figuring out what the question is actually asking you. If the answers are very different than what you came up with on your own, then something is "off". The key thing is not to panic and not to overthink the questions. I suspect that you were overthinking things and that's what slowed you down too much.

To me, the fact that you got through school successfully and you went well past 75 questions means you very likely have most, if not all, of the knowledge necessary to pass.

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To ngocupham:

I wish I could give you a hug. I know EXACTLY what you're going thru. I graduated back in January, didn't get my ATT until mid April (because of the state's delay to process applications), and took boards exactly a month ago. I took the entire 6 hours and got 265 questions. I left the test site in a daze and completely numb. I was the LAST person to leave the site. I had a sinking feeling I did not pass either. I was still stressed out and traumatized from the whole test experience that I kept waking up every other hour that night. When I checked the PV site at 0630 the next morning, I got the CC page. My fears were now confirmed.

I was in shock, sad, and disappointed in myself. The thought of having to sit for NCLEX again scares me. But I know if I don't, I'll never have the RN after my name.

What was my study plan for my first attempt? I relied mainly on Kaplan. I did all the trainers with scores ranging from 55-80 something and my Qbank was completed at 100% with a 59% readiness score. Kaplan teaches you good strategies, but my downfall was probably content along with personal stress going on in my life around the time I took boards, something I did NOT need and have since resolved. There was no way to know everything when you sit for boards. There is a saying in school of "If you're not using it, you're losing it." Kaplan focused on topics THEY think is relevant. I did dabble a bit in Saunders 5th edition, but I found the questions were easy compared to how Kaplan was worded. Anyhow, if I tested a month or two after graduating I likely would've passed. But since I sat for my boards 6 months since graduating due to the state's delay in processing applications and limited test dates/times available once I got approval, it added more stress onto my plate.

I got the CPR exactly a week from the day I tested. I took my reapply application, fee to the BRN, and IP (yes, they make you return it if you want to sit for boards again EVEN THOUGH they cancel the IP once you take NCLEX regardless if you pass or fail or 6 months after they issue it, whichever comes first) to the post office and mailed it out the same afternoon. I called the BRN yesterday morning asking if they have processed my reapply application since it's been 3 weeks since I mailed the reapply application and etc. Guess what? NOPE. The lady I spoke with asked me to call back the last week of this month, which will be past my 45 days since I first took the exam.

I felt some comfort that I was "near passing standard" in all the categories. So close, but not close enough. (I still don't know whether to laugh or cry at times.)

In the meantime, I have been practicing questions daily. I practice anywhere from 50-150 questions a day. I got my full refund back from Kaplan. They offered to extend their online resources for me for another 3 months, but all they would do is reset my account. I don't feel any challenge to my brain if I saw questions repeated and end up with an inflated score. (In case if you were wondering, I wrote down notes for ALL the rationales regardless if I got it right or wrong from all the trainers, Qbank questions, sample tests, etc. I did all the questions available on Kaplan to help reinforce my studying.)As I stated before, Kaplan focuses on topics THEY think is relevant to know. But with any standardized test, you just don't know WHAT question/topic will be presented to you.

My study tools I'm using this time around are Exam Cram, NCLEX-RN Mastery app, NCLEX 4000, PDA by LaCharity, and Lippincott's Alternate Format Questions book. I know I need more practice with SATA and PDA because every other question thrown at me was a SATA or a PDA. One of my friends/classmates who was a stellar nursing student and passed her boards suggested to me not to go over all content again. She said I know the material, it's most likely my test taking that needs tweaking and she offered to help tutor me to find out why I choose the answers I do.

Anyhow, please take the time to grieve over this experience. Take a few days or a week to regroup. I know it's a blow that you didn't pass, but many great nurses didn't pass on their first try either. Take a break! Hang out with your friends, watch a movie, or do whatever that takes your mind off of this test experience. Your mind and body needs it. When you're ready, you'll formulate a new study plan for the 2nd and last time you take boards.

Oh! In regards to feeling embarrassed, it gets easier to tell people you didn't pass when they ask. Well, this has been my experience in the past month. Just remember, we are our own worst critic.

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DJAYS has 5 years experience.

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Yes this is so true...DO NOT TELL NOBODY WHEN YOU ABOUT TO RETAKE ...it's your business. Don't ever tell nobody of your date on this site..Relax and take a few days to get yourself together before you do anything. I failed the first thing myself, and I will not tell ONE person when I am going to retake it..only GOD knows. I haven't look for a job or have I seen anybody I want to tell about MY test. My husband is looking and asking questions but I work around him. Just force on one question at a time and relax . You made it throgh nursing school SO YOU WILL MAKE IT THROUGH THIS. I had to make myself a schedule to go by..and I am doing questions and reading at a better paste now. I want to make my family proud also, but I first must please myself and be happy. Find a program that works for you and you get something out of it. Yes there is S-O many reviews but not all our good I think I have every book from so many people. Now I just keep to myself ..no facebook...no telling people when I am testing...I go to quite place and I get all my thought together and so can you...YOU are a nurse ...wait for 45 dyas or long you will know ..

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hk2517

Thank you soo much for your understanding and support! So glad to know someone in the same situation. I read your post and it kinda like I relived my own story. I am trying to get over this experience and will need to refocus and rethink my study plan. I did the same study plan like you for Kaplan. However, my content was weak so I only able to review contents that were relevant that came up in questions. I also asked my friends to help me out with Hurst review. She had some content which I will try to look into. I also will need to study more with Saunders too. I did not study much in Saunders and sure regretting it.

Can you please tell me what is the IP again for the reapplication? It has been a while since my application to BRN. Everything is kinda like a blurred to me now.

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akulahawkRN thank you for your support. I did slowed down and panic because I got things mixed up in my head. I especially had a very hard time memorizing the meds. I was mad because I thought they suppose to give us like both names for meds but only gave me one name. I totally like blanked out on meds that totally messed me up all over. I will stay focus and try again.

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DJAYS Yeah I actually did not tell any body my test date. Not even my parents. Not even telling them the night before because I truly did not want to have the pressure on my back. It just that I hate my relatives, they are so nosy and a lot of time, it hard to lie when they keep asking and asking. I normally have test anxiety anyways. I actually got palpitation walking into the test room but it calm down as I start doing the test. I think I will stop caring about what people think of me for failing. I truly went through the nursing program alone. None of my family understand how hard it is. They still think RN is inferior than being a Dr. I stop caring for a while, but once in a full moon like this situation, I kick myself for not being good enough. I will focus and try again. Thanks for your support!!

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IP is the interim permit. I don't know if your state issued yours to you when you got your ATT. I know some of my pre-nursing school friends who graduated from other RN programs never got their IPs because the state was lagging behind in processing those along with the applications.

The IP is issued as a one time deal. It expires the day you take NCLEX the first time regardless if you pass or fail OR six months after the IP is issued, whichever comes first. Well, that's the deal in my state anyway.

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