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Today, I took the NCLEX for the 2nd time. My mind truly went blank after the test. I don't remember what time I officially started the test, but I know it must started at around 8:00 and I was out at about 10:20. I took one 2min break after I completed question 76 when the computer offered the break and then I sat down and continued to question 100. I know I continued beyond 100, but I totally got freak out when the computer went blue and I totally did not know what number I was on. I tried to not to at the clock and the number that much because the last time I did that, I just got more anxiety as the questions gone up. When the computer shut off and after I finished the survey, I was very hopeful that I might pass. However, in the back of my head, I am really worry and scare. I keep hearing people either got shut off at 75 and can do good or bad or continue taking the exams to the 200s and low chance to pass. I have reads that peoples get up to the 80s has a very good chance of passing. However, not much about the 100s. Now, I even get more anxiety and depressed because some of the thread on here has the mix answers of passing or failing. My mind really blank out right now and I could not remember what types of questions I got toward the ends of the test. All I can remember is there were SATA and priority, just not sure how many questions were there. I am now doubting myself so much because may be I went thru the questions too quickly. I am usually the slow reader type, but today, I might have gone thru the questions too quickly. Last time, I had gone out of time on question 210, so I was trying to change that. Now, the computer shut me off at 100 something, it got me very worry. I am in a very bad situation. I know I completely brought it to myself and don't understand why I would do that, but now I am just hoping for a good outcome. Truthfully, today is my last day to be able to register for the NCLEX. I have gone to the one year limit for my ATT and within the next 3 month, my app for the board will also expired from the 2 years limit. I took my 1st NCLEX in July 2014 and failed. I was devastated and continue to delay my test until now. I was being stupid and cannot get my head out of the depression state that I was in. I cried so much when I failed the first time, and now I just don't know how I feel. I want to cry, but I can't. I want to be happy, but I can't either. My friend told me to do the Pearson Vue trick, but I have read on the changes of the site and I really don't want to risk paying due to my situation. I am already at the deadline for my ATT, so I don't know whether the trick will work for me. I don't want it to take my money and I know that I am not ready to take it again within the next 3 months. So when the 2 year app limit is over, it means I will be paying double for the exam alone. I have never try to call to get information regarding this situation. I just know people have to spend a lot of time trying to call the board. I live in CA, so does anyone know a good time and way to contact the board? I don't know what to do now, and I am just so lost now. I am just so pressured with my family situation and feeling so stupid about my situation. I don't know what is my plan after this. I am so stressed thinking about trying to apply and study and do the test again. I am also so scared of thinking that I might have to go back to school and study again for another major. I just feel so horrible....

DJAYS Yeah I actually did not tell any body my test date. Not even my parents. Not even telling them the night before because I truly did not want to have the pressure on my back. It just that I hate my relatives, they are so nosy and a lot of time, it hard to lie when they keep asking and asking. I normally have test anxiety anyways. I actually got palpitation walking into the test room but it calm down as I start doing the test. I think I will stop caring about what people think of me for failing. I truly went through the nursing program alone. None of my family understand how hard it is. They still think RN is inferior than being a Dr. I stop caring for a while, but once in a full moon like this situation, I kick myself for not being good enough. I will focus and try again. Thanks for your support!!

akulahawkRN thank you for your support. I did slowed down and panic because I got things mixed up in my head. I especially had a very hard time memorizing the meds. I was mad because I thought they suppose to give us like both names for meds but only gave me one name. I totally like blanked out on meds that totally messed me up all over. I will stay focus and try again.

hk2517 Thank you soo much for your understanding and support! So glad to know someone in the same situation. I read your post and it kinda like I relived my own story. I am trying to get over this experience and will need to refocus and rethink my study plan. I did the same study plan like you for Kaplan. However, my content was weak so I only able to review contents that were relevant that came up in questions. I also asked my friends to help me out with Hurst review. She had some content which I will try to look into. I also will need to study more with Saunders too. I did not study much in Saunders and sure regretting it. Can you please tell me what is the IP again for the reapplication? It has been a while since my application to BRN. Everything is kinda like a blurred to me now.

It is now 1:00 am and I just want to make a post. I graduated in Dec 13 and I just took my NCLEX 13 hrs ago. I ran out of time and only made it to 200 questions. I immediately knew that I did not pass when my test ended. I went home and cry and cry and cry my eyes out. Then I checked the PVT and cry again because what I predicted was right. I did not even have the gut to tell my parents, but they knew anyways because they saw me moping on my bed and crying my eyeballs out. My face is aching from all the crying. I should not have made the mistake for waiting this long to take this test. I actually got my ATT at the end of March due to the whole change of system from the board. My parents was pushing me to get a job, and I guess I was lucky to get offered a part time as a caretaker for an elder woman. I was thinking that I can earn a little bit of money while studying for this test. I registered for my test in early May, but things got in the way and I continued to push back the date until now. It was clearly a mistake because I actually did not fully study until the last three weeks before the test. I actually took the Kaplan class course back in January and felt it was very helpful. The Kaplan QBank and trainers made me feel comfortable enough that I know I am ready for it. I am a very bad test taker and to tell you guys the truth, I struggled a lot in nursing school. I did not have high hope to pass at 75 questions, but was hoping to pass this test. Now that my mind has clear, I have several things I want to ask. Firstly, can someone tell me the process of reapplying? I look at it briefly, but not sure yet, from what I know, I need to pay both the exam fee and the BRN app fee again. However, do I have to go through the whole process of getting transcripts and finger printing for the application again? Secondly, how long would you recommended to wait before the next test? I know that we cannot take it again until 45 days after, but is it too soon? Lastly, I really want to know how you guys can cope with this. I feel like a major dumb, studpid, failure! My school has the NCLEX passing rate of 98% every semester, and I happen to be that 2% who failed. I know that soon enough, my classmate will find out. How do you guys deal with being so embarrassed for not passing? I don't have much close friends in my class, and my besties passed on their first time. I have no one to talk to because my friends does not understand how I really feel, and no one in my family understand the hardship of being a nurse and taking the freaking NCLEX. I doubt myself so much that I don't know if I can do this. I don't have much family support either because I just cannot get my parents to understand how hard it is for me. For them, they want me to pass this test quickly and get a job as fast as I can so that I can buy them a house and get my family out of the situation we are living in. I know it is my responsibility to care for my parents because they have been supporting me through out my entire college years, but the pressure just make it worse. I felt like I committed a crime and now feeling so guilty when I think about my parents. I also don't know how to talk to my relatives when they ask "Did you have a job yet?" "Did you have your license?". I don't know what to say because failure in my family seems to be such a big thing. Now, everything is just delayed while all of my friends are happily working at their dreamed job. I love this profession so much and I am committed to it. Though, today, for a moment, I felt that may be Nursing is not for me. I felt that the world just ended or fell of top of me and I am forever doomed! I know that Nursing is what I chose and what I really love. However, I just wish I have the support that I need. I just wish people can understand.