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I am finally able to leave nursing by January 2018

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Has 5 years experience.

I haven't posted on this forum in a while. I am one of the people that feels nursing is way tooo stressful and my job has ruined my life.

Every time I go to work I get nervous, anxious, I feel like vomiting and I have worked here for years.

I used to be 150lbs just 5 years ago. I am now 220lbs. I eat to make me feel better and nursing also turned me into an alcoholic.

I drink whiskey after a long day of work just to feel a little relaxed. I drink the day before I work to help me feel a little better. I get anxious knowing that I work the next day. I even feel like this 2 days or more before I work just knowing that I have to work in a few days.

Dont get me wrong. I hide everything very well inside. All of my patients love me, I treat them like my own familly, my don loves me along with many of my coworkers. They always tell me that I am always very calm and so nice to everyone. I respect everyone and do my best every time I go to work.

i even get the most patient satisfaction kudos cards quite often. I am a good nurse but inside I am deing.

My financial situation has slightly improved and I plan to get out of nursing completely by January 1 2018.

Sorry for the rant. I needed to let this out. Nursing has ruined my life. It's all about the profits hospitals make, short staffed etc... I could keep going on and on.

I hate nursing. I am so happy I

am brave enough to realize nursing is not for me and move to another career instead of doing something that has ruined my life for the rest of my life.

I plan to further my main online business and several other online businesses. I will be working from home.

I should have listened to my dad when he said to get a bachelors in information technology with a specialty in software development.

I will most likely do what he said while working at home.

Sour Lemon

Has 9 years experience.

Is this type of announcement turning into some sort of trend?

NursingBro

Has 5 years experience.

I was looking at my old threads and I posted the below message in 2013. It makes me very said I still feel like this after all those years:

These are the symptoms I feel:

1. My heart feels warm and is pumping faster and harder than usual.

2. I feel very anxious and nervous.

3. In the morning I always feel like throwing up just thinking about going to work. I do throw up about 70% of all mornings.

4. I shake every morning.

5. I breathe harder than usual.

6. A very uncomfortable nervous/anxious feeling all over my body.

NursingBro

Has 5 years experience.

Is this type of announcement turning into some sort of trend?

Sorry don't know what the trends are here. I haven't posted in over 1 year.

Sorry for the rant. I needed to let this out. Nursing has ruined my life[...]I hate nursing. I am so happy I am brave enough to realize nursing is not for me and move to another career instead of doing something that has ruined my life for the rest of my life.

I am happy for you that you have made a decision to extricate yourself from a situation which clearly has made you feel unhappy and hopeless. But, nursing has *not* "ruined" your life. You have options. You are not an indentured servant. You can choose to walk away and pursue any line of work your heart desires.

I would also like to respectfully suggest that you speak to a mental health professional so that you may work through some of your issues with stress and anxiety and your self-medicating with alcohol. You deserve to start your new career with a clear head, and not falling into old habits, including the fatalistic thinking you mention in this post (i.e. your life has been ruined).

Good luck with your new career choice. I hope you find some peace and happiness.

roser13, ASN, RN

Specializes in Med/Surg, Ortho, ASC. Has 17 years experience.

I am happy for you that you have made a decision to extricate yourself from a situation which clearly has made you feel unhappy and hopeless. But, nursing has *not* "ruined" your life. You have options. You are not an indentured servant. You can choose to walk away and pursue any line of work your heart desires.

I would also like to respectfully suggest that you speak to a mental health professional so that you may work through some of your issues with stress and anxiety and your self-medicating with alcohol. You deserve to start your new career with a clear head, and not falling into old habits, including the fatalistic thinking you mention in this post (i.e. your life has been ruined).

Good luck with your new career choice. I hope you find some peace and happiness.

This^^

Nursing has not turned you into an alcoholic. We get it (trust me, we do) that nursing is stressful. But lack of coping skills or development of less than healthy coping skills is on you at some point. If you do not address these issues, do not be surprised if they follow you into your new chosen profession.

I was looking at my old threads and I posted the below message in 2013. It makes me very said I still feel like this after all those years:

These are the symptoms I feel:

1. My heart feels warm and is pumping faster and harder than usual.

2. I feel very anxious and nervous.

3. In the morning I always feel like throwing up just thinking about going to work. I do throw up about 70% of all mornings.

4. I shake every morning.

5. I breathe harder than usual.

6. A very uncomfortable nervous/anxious feeling all over my body.

So, did you seek any professional treatment for your anxiety? Are you getting any professional help now? It wasn't nursing that "turned (you) into an alcoholic," it was choices that you made.

Nursing is certainly not for everyone, and there's nothing wrong with wanting to do something else instead. I hope you'll find something that suits you better, and best wishes for your journey.

Been there,done that, ASN, RN

Has 33 years experience.

I haven't posted on this forum in a while. I am one of the people that feels nursing is way tooo stressful and my job has ruined my life.

Every time I go to work I get nervous, anxious, I feel like vomiting and I have worked here for years.

I used to be 150lbs just 5 years ago. I am now 220lbs. I eat to make me feel better and nursing also turned me into an alcoholic.

I drink whiskey after a long day of work just to feel a little relaxed. I drink the day before I work to help me feel a little better. I get anxious knowing that I work the next day. I even feel like this 2 days or more before I work just knowing that I have to work in a few days.

Dont get me wrong. I hide everything very well inside. All of my patients love me, I treat them like my own familly, my don loves me along with many of my coworkers. They always tell me that I am always very calm and so nice to everyone. I respect everyone and do my best every time I go to work.

i even get the most patient satisfaction kudos cards quite often. I am a good nurse but inside I am deing.

My financial situation has slightly improved and I plan to get out of nursing completely by January 1 2018.

Sorry for the rant. I needed to let this out. Nursing has ruined my life. It's all about the profits hospitals make, short staffed etc... I could keep going on and on.

I hate nursing. I am so happy I

am brave enough to realize nursing is not for me and move to another career instead of doing something that has ruined my life for the rest of my life.

I plan to further my main online business and several other online businesses. I will be working from home.

I should have listened to my dad when he said to get a bachelors in information technology with a specialty in software development.

I will most likely do what he said while working at home.

Completely agree nursing stinks. I also wish I would have listened to my dad. He told me to get out during my first year.. when I KNEW I was getting beat up. Took me a long time to get out of the hospital. I work from home now, you enjoy.

traumaRUs, MSN, APRN, CNS

Specializes in Nephrology, Cardiology, ER, ICU. Has 27 years experience.

Your anxiety and distress comes thru in your posts. I'm so sorry that nursing isn't your niche.

Please consider getting some counseling, meds, or something to help you cope. Alcohol isn't the answer.

blondy2061h, MSN, RN

Specializes in Oncology. Has 15 years experience.

I highly suspect your new career path won't be the cure all you anticipate it to be, though I hope and pray you find peace and joy soon.

I am not going to take the opportunity to criticize you or your decision, but I will offer you my sincere best wishes. I hope that you are able to find a line of work that does not make you ill just thinking about the workday ahead of you.

NursingBro

Has 5 years experience.

I highly suspect your new career path won't be the cure all you anticipate it to be, though I hope and pray you find peace and joy soon.

I know this will probably be too much information.. I have been a web designer since I was 14, I am 34 now. I was home schooled and finished school early. Computers were always my passion but my mom and dad never had money to take me to college and schools where I was from were filled with bad kids, drugs, sex, gangs etc...

I hated school and as soon as I turned 14 I started learning HTML, CSS, JavaScript, at that time flash animation and action script coding, asp etc...

I graduated what would be 12th grade at a normal school by the time I was about to be 17. By 17 I had a job with a company I won't mention working from home. I was making good money and loved what I did.

Fast forward to about 2005 I was making so much money. Believe it or not I was making over $7k profit a week and it got to a point that I couldn't handle all the jobs. At around 2010 I was still making good money and loved what I did. 0 stress and I enjoyed my work.

I realized I had been working from home since I was very young and my social skills were not very good.

In about 2010 I took a break and started traveling all over the world. Dubai, Egypt, China, etc... just so many places. I traveled without working for a long time and it was not just any travel but sort of luxury traveling for example $1800 a night at the burj al Arab in Dubai etc...

Fast forward to about 2011 I noticed I didn't really have friends just my dog. I thought I should get a job where I can help people and be more social.

I thought nursing would be an excellent choice so I went to lvn school without working the whole year.

Fast forward I am now an LVN and work as a web designer on the side.

My parents had several problems and I had to help them economically. I won't go into too much detail but now I have a home but am filled with so much debt.

I cant quit my nursing job that I know is destroying me because web designing is not as stable as it once was. Starting in 2018 I plan to quit nursing completely and build up my web design business and other online stores Inplan to open.

I will be working on my passion and hope for the best. As long as I have enough to pay even the minimum in all the debt I now have I will be happy.

I have several plans that can really help me and pay well. One thing I can say is nursing did help my social skills so I do thank nursing for that.

Wish me luck I plan to pay of all debt and start saving a lot after I pay it all. I will be working with what I love computers and it makes me happy that I will finally be able to quit nursing. :) I was also self taught so I have no degree only a large portfolio of work I have done. I plan to get a bachelors in computer programming so one day I can get a job at an actual firm or even further my own business.

I skipped a lot and sorry for any misspelled words. I just wanted to give a good view of my situation.

Good for you and good luck!

A lot of people feel the same way about nursing but not everyone will admit it.

I'm happy for you that you found a way out of something that seems to be very unhealthy for you. I have a friend who, two years into her nursing career, struggled with alcohol as well. It's a stressful job, and it's not worth your health or sanity. Congratulations on the new opportunity and good luck in your future endeavors.

Been there,done that, ASN, RN

Has 33 years experience.

Your anxiety and distress comes thru in your posts. I'm so sorry that nursing isn't your niche.

Please consider getting some counseling, meds, or something to help you cope. Alcohol isn't the answer.

OP did not ask for advice. OP presented his plan. Listen... it's a good one.

Out of curiosity:

OP-

Did you try a different field of nursing? Usually, it is not "Nursing" itself that is the problem, but the field.

Personally, I do not want to work bedside nursing ever again. I prefer the community-based settings.

Looking at your interests...Ever looked into, say, nursing informatics?

TriciaJ, RN

Specializes in Psych, Corrections, Med-Surg, Ambulatory. Has 40 years experience.

Congratulations on finding your way out of an unsustainable situation. It's hard to be "on" all the time and after a while your stress level just doesn't go back down just because you're off duty. You sound like a very conscientious nurse and your work is taking way more out of you than it is putting back in. I agree with a previous poster that nursing informatics might be worth looking into.

Please do get some help with your overall health so you can finally start to relax and enjoy your next thing. Sometimes, just getting out of the environment isn't enough. Wishing you improved health and many blessings.

I know this will probably be too much information.. I have been a web designer since I was 14, I am 34 now. I was home schooled and finished school early. Computers were always my passion but my mom and dad never had money to take me to college and schools where I was from were filled with bad kids, drugs, sex, gangs etc...

I hated school and as soon as I turned 14 I started learning HTML, CSS, JavaScript, at that time flash animation and action script coding, asp etc...

I graduated what would be 12th grade at a normal school by the time I was about to be 17. By 17 I had a job with a company I won't mention working from home. I was making good money and loved what I did.

Fast forward to about 2005 I was making so much money. Believe it or not I was making over $7k profit a week and it got to a point that I couldn't handle all the jobs. At around 2010 I was still making good money and loved what I did. 0 stress and I enjoyed my work.

I realized I had been working from home since I was very young and my social skills were not very good.

In about 2010 I took a break and started traveling all over the world. Dubai, Egypt, China, etc... just so many places. I traveled without working for a long time and it was not just any travel but sort of luxury traveling for example $1800 a night at the burj al Arab in Dubai etc...

Fast forward to about 2011 I noticed I didn't really have friends just my dog. I thought I should get a job where I can help people and be more social.

I thought nursing would be an excellent choice so I went to lvn school without working the whole year.

Fast forward I am now an LVN and work as a web designer on the side.

My parents had several problems and I had to help them economically. I won't go into too much detail but now I have a home but am filled with so much debt.

I cant quit my nursing job that I know is destroying me because web designing is not as stable as it once was. Starting in 2018 I plan to quit nursing completely and build up my web design business and other online stores Inplan to open.

I will be working on my passion and hope for the best. As long as I have enough to pay even the minimum in all the debt I now have I will be happy.

I have several plans that can really help me and pay well. One thing I can say is nursing did help my social skills so I do thank nursing for that.

Wish me luck I plan to pay of all debt and start saving a lot after I pay it all. I will be working with what I love computers and it makes me happy that I will finally be able to quit nursing. :) I was also self taught so I have no degree only a large portfolio of work I have done. I plan to get a bachelors in computer programming so one day I can get a job at an actual firm or even further my own business.

I skipped a lot and sorry for any misspelled words. I just wanted to give a good view of my situation.

If web designing isn't real stable and you are in debt, can you really afford to leave nursing?

Here's wishing you well.