I came to work today, and a new patient was added into the mix. A male, sick in prision, serving time as a pedafpile. I was raised in a very abusive home. I figured someday, I might have to deal with a situation like this. I defienetly had issues when I saw this man. I felt an immediate dislike, more like a repulsion. I did manage to do my job, and do the things I needed to do.
But there are many memories, and much pain dredged up today. On my drive home, I was moved to tears. I don't hate this man, but I hate what he did. I also hate what was done to me as a child. How do I get past this? This person will be in my care for some time to come. I work nights, so switching out patients isn't an option.
I thought I had dealt with my past, that my abuser doesn't rule my future. But, it did today. Does anyone have any experience with this?