When I tell people (classmates and friends) that I really hate this rotation, I just get this "Ohhh, you don't like kids", reaction from them. I feel bad at that point for even voicing my frustration because then I feel the need to explain that I don't hate kids (got three lovebugs of my own), I just hate being around children who are hurting and in obvious distress. Last week one of the children was screaming his head off because of a blood draw and I just thought "Thank goodness I don't have to be in there with them". My spirit weeps on the inside, sadness pervades my entire day when I'm on the floor
. I intellectually realize that these children need care and that without the skilled assisstance and interventions that nurses provide, they wouldn't get better. But emotionally, it's wracking me to be there. All I can say is that I can't wait for the end of this rotation to come (it won't come soon enough), and thank God there are great OB/PEDS nurses out there who love doing their job. I've found a higher level of respect for the nurses who can effectively do their job without it decimating their spirits :angel2: .
I guess one good thing about this rotation is that I categorically know that I won't be pursuing OB/PEDS as a specialty.
Thanks for letting me whine.