Here I am on vacation, but already dreading starting school again b/c of clinicals.
I've pinpointed a few reasons why I hate them, and I'm hoping someone here can help me out...
1) It's not so much the fear of the unknown that haunts me when I roll out of bed at 5:30 a.m., it's that I'm scared that something bad is going to happen, and the finger is going to be pointed at me.
2) One of my instructors rides the hell out of me and I don't understand why. I was warned about her from previous students. they told me that she finds one person in the group to ride, and she rides them during the whole rotation with her - which was 6 weeks for me last semester....WTH?....
I always get there before any other student so I can get organized. I never smart back, etc, etc....but, i do get VERY nervous when she comes around me that I always make a silly mistake or say something silly - nothing major at all...i.e.,
I put a blood pressure cuff on on of my patients upside down, but realized it myself. She embarassed the hell out of me. And one time I grabbed for some gloves to give an IV push and she asked me what I needed them for...."do you see any drainage coming from his IV?" Then rolled her eyes.
She once cornered me and told me that I need to be more assertive with the staff nurses because they are using me to do everything and now I've put HER behind schedule and how she may write me up. I cried when she walked away.
I was looking thru one of the charts and I guess the unit clerk was looking for it. She told me to go give it to her, while adding..."she's got your number now" WTH?
I'm going to have her for 6 more weeks next semester, and I hope she will find someone else to pick on b/c I don't know if I can take anymore. The stuff that I listed is only a few, and it's very hard to describe the condescending tone she uses and the faces she gives.
Also, in post conferance one time we were talking about the Hesi test. That is the "final" exam after 4th semester and we get 3 tries to pass it. If you don't pass by your 3rd try, she stated, "that means you are too stupid and you need to repeat 4th semester - hahaha" I thought that was very unprofessional. In my opinion, you must have something going on upstairs to make it to 4th semester. If you don't pass Hesi or state boards, you probably have some type of anxiety issue. That response was not called for at all.
She also embarasses people during post conference.
So, how do I deal with her? I was thinking of going to my doc to see if he would put me on Zyprexa or Ativan to take PRN, and I would take one before every one of her clinicals. I absolutely dread them.
Any other advice you can give will be greatly appreciated.