Have mercy on me, I am supposed to be the strong one - page 3

This is not a Nursing issue, but I had a very bad night tonight. First I get to work and get a phone call about 1930 from my husband that my Mare is in foal and something is wrong. I've had her... Read More

  1. by   SmilingBluEyes
    My goodness what a horror story. I am truly sorry about all this. HUGS for you.
  2. by   lynnintn
    I am so very sorry for your loss.
  3. by   SandyB
    You were strong...you did what had to be done, that's courage! And afterwards, it's normal to feel horrible and cry.What had to be done was awful! My heart goes out to you and I sure hope your mare makes it. She is family!
    HUGS to you and ALL your family.
  4. by   catrn10
    thank you all for yor kindness and caring. Right now Khaia lives, but I don't know for how long. She still has failed to pass the afterbirth and placenta.I have been giving her oxytocin injections every 4 hours since she lost the colt. She is standing, but looks miserable. I also started giving her 2-10cc injections of PCN. All of this is per Vet's orders. If she has not passed it by morning, I am to call him back. He has been reluctant to tell me what happens then. I want to pull on the stuff hanging out, but if that was the thing to do, the Vet would have done it. I find myself wondering if they can do a D&C on a horse. They have very delicate intestional tracks, and I have seen no signs of her having had a bowel movement. If she doesn't she will die for sure. The kids are doing better than I had hoped, but to them, they think she's going to be ok, after all, she is up and standing. I dread tonight. I have had about 3 hours sleep through all of this. With the usual callousness my agency has exhibted, they called wanting me to work tonight and are very sceptical about my reasons for declining. I no longer feel the need to explain anything to my manager, I am, after all, per diem and I was not on the schedule for tonight. I have the right not to work. I start a 13 week assignment in Macon on the 3rd of next month and I am looking forward to it. I just hope this passes soon and Khaia lives. I hate to leave my family with the kids upset..I'll keep you posted.thank you all again...Cat
  5. by   spineCNOR
    Poor Cat, how horrible for you and your family! I sincerely hope your mare pulls through--please let us know how she (and you) make out.
  6. by   sunnygirl272
    hugs to you and your kids! ( and a sugar cube for khaia)
  7. by   PennyLane
    Oh how awful. You are truly a strong woman to have done that for your mare. That shows how much you love her, and I'm sure on some level she understood. I'm very sad for you and your family.
  8. by   researchrabbit
    I am so sorry for all of you. Please keep us posted.
  9. by   Jay-Jay
    One horse lover to another: {{{{{HUGS}}}}}
  10. by   hapeewendy
    big hugs to you and your family
    this is just horrible, very sad
    you are a WONDERFUL person and have done so much more than so many others would have done....

    your beloved friend can sense that too I'm sure

  11. by   tattooednursie
    Cat, just because your a nurse does not mean that you always have to be the strong one. You are human. You, your family, and Khaia are in my prayrs.
  12. by   tiger
    i grew up with horses(although we only had one give birth and i guess everything went fine-i was i kid then)and after i had moved away my mom and dad kept them in the pasture(farm area) and checked/fed them daily. i remember her calling me to tell me when our "sonny" died. she was so upset. she had driven to the pasture and seen him standing by the tank. he was really old(for a horse-can't remember exactly but he was past 30 which is very unusual).also, this horse had foundered way back when he was young. he had originally been my dads horse. when he foundered, my mom took him as her own, walked him daily in the creek, etc.. he got over it completely and was able to run and everthing. the vet had said he never would. anyways, she drove on down to the bottom of the pasture to take care of some things and was there for several hours. when she came back, he was dead. she did at least feel good that he had not suffered. he had gone quickly. prior to this, our shetland had died at the pasture while noone was there and she said she saw marks in the dirt that he had made while laying there. she was so sick that she was not there. you can only do the best you can. i guess i got my love for animals from my mom. once, n my hamster quit eating and was losing weight. she took it to the vet. they said it's teeth had grown too long. she said even though she thought the vet was a jerk to her she felt he was a good doc. she said she sat and cried while they filed the teeth down. after that, she said the vet and assistant treated her nicer--like they thought they better-she must be crazy.
  13. by   angelbear
    My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours. I admire your courage and the love that you show.