Nursing can be hell. But it can also be the most amazing job in the whole world. I feel for ya'll that are having a bad time... I hit one year this month. A lot of my friends from nursing school are in similar situations and it hurts me to hear how they are being treated by physicians, co-workers and the system in general. In nursing school we were all such strong women! Now they get disrespected, overworked and pushed to the side. A lot of them are looking for a way out. I don't know what the answer is, but something needs to change.
I actually like my job. I work at a teaching hospital where the residents are always learning from us. My co-workers are supportive (for the most part) and we help each other when the going gets tough. It seems like the craziness comes in waves... some nights I fall into bed and wish I could just die. I hate nursing, etc. But then I'll get a chance to be therapeutic with a family, or handle a high-acuity patient and it reminds me why I chose this career. I keep those moments in the back of my mind. The other night was nuts ~ we were 3 nurses with 2 patients each, then we got 2 new admits back to back. One was a 7 month old child abuse case, then a 28yo whose psycho roommate poured boiling water on him. A vasopressin drip ran out on a critical patient and there were no supplies on the floor to make a new one. Very stressful. Luckily I had an extra for my patient, so I took it and hung it on him. Yes, wrong patient ~ but what was I going to do. The night continued in that fashion. I was fed up to here. But then one of my patients, who had never attempted to speak before (trach collar), grabbed my hands when I was by the bed, held my hand, looked me in the eye and mouthed "I love you." It made the rest of that crazy night worth it. Nursing... who came up with this mess
As an aside, I'm also 2 semesters into doing an FNP, MPH (dual-degree). I love my NP clinicals and the insight I gain from public health. There is a lot more professionalism in the NP world and I love that I get to have the critical thinking & patient relationships without being in panic mode. It's busy, but not busy like nursing! This is something I could do for the rest of my life. I hope you find where you fit. It's a big world out there... life is too short not to follow your dreams.
Take care of yourself!