Failure. Disappointed. Embarrassed.

[guest942057]

So the last time I logged into this site was in 2016, it was the year I failed my last semester of nursing school. I remember getting on this site and I was complaining about a grade that the majority of the class received and despite some great nurses giving me advice the majority of the readers told me to "suck it up" and that this is "nursing" and that maybe this career was "not meant for me." I cried at work as I read the comments. I was so embarrassed and disappointed in myself that I had to send an email in order to have the post taken down. I remembered the feeling of being shocked. That I could not believe that a community of caring individuals could make me feel so terrible. 

I just wanted to say that I graduated from a different program, in a different state with honors. It took me two years, a ton of patience and a lot of hard work but I did it, I graduated in May of 2020 with my ADN (GPA 3.6) and my BSN in December of 2020 (4.0). I am now at my first job on a medical-surgical unit at a Level I hospital. I am currently retaking some of my core classes in order to apply to CRNA school in the next five years. 

For every student that is reading this, that maybe is going through some type of personal or financial struggle, that maybe just received their first failing grade or perhaps is questioning being a nurse at all due to how challenging everything is... I want you to know that you got this. Nursing is such a unique profession and it does have a ton of love in it! Keep being positive about your journey and know that you just have to take one day at a time. Even if you just failed the entire program, that is okay too. Failure was one of my biggest lessons and one that I still keep close to my heart- we are all human, it is okay to be flawed. Resiliency is a great attribute to have and will always keep you humble. 

To all those negative people that commented on my original post I wanted to say that I hope you still have love in your heart. That you still are a great nurse despite wanting to bring someone down that you have no idea what they are going through. I hope you learn that the words you type through a keyboard matter. That you effect others.

[vintagegal, BSN, DNP, RN, NP]

Honestly, situations like this I find offensive to my sensibilities. I was not one of the RNs that trespassed against you. Nor was I witness to the situation you referenced. I don’t appreciate calling a fellow nurse and human a Karen. What a nasty sentiment. And nastier still to anyone who by birth name was given this title due to “keyboard” trolls on internet tirades. Your entire career you will face people who don’t agree with you, who have different opinions, who are mean. Just like you touted earlier, you must rise above and beyond to be successful. It’s the proverbial “turn the other cheek” scenario. Best of luck to you in your career. 

[londonflo]

On 2/3/2021 at 9:59 PM, ppark01j said:

I just wanted to say that I graduated from a different program, in a different state with honors. It took me two years, a ton of patience and a lot of hard work but I did it,

 I would love to here more about how you were able to gain entry to another program and achieve your goal. Congrats!

[Peacefulhippy88, CNA]

I really needed this as this is my second try in nursing school. I've been bearing myself up but I know this is what I want to do. Your message really touched and made me feel as though I'm not alone. Thank you ❤

[oldie, CNA, LVN]

Truly inspirational I’m going through something like this right now and may be thrown from the nursing program soon thank you for this post and congratulations on your success ! I hope to be like you ) 

[BethanyRN92]

On 2/7/2021 at 6:43 AM, Spurs_up said:

Some advice, resorting to immature name calling due to not getting a pat on the back is something you will need to work on. There is a lot of “tough love” in CRNA school. No preceptor will owe you kudos, but will critique every move you make. 

I agree. IF he can get past the didactic portion, CRNA clinicals will a whole new experience. 

[sleepwalker, MSN, NP]

Worrying about getting into a CRNA program in 5 years or so is at the bottom of a long list of problems evidenced by the OP's replies. 

[the_doodlern]

Thats wonderful. Where did you do a bridge program so fast? LOL

[oldie, CNA, LVN]

12 hours ago, sleepwalker said:

Worrying about getting into a CRNA program in 5 years or so is at the bottom of a long list of problems evidenced by the OP's replies. 

What I miss ?!

[iseeincolor]

Honey, there are a lot of pretentious nurses on this forum.  Do NOT ever come on here and rely on complete strangers for advice.

[Hannahbanana, BSN, MSN]

It is possible that after you've been working as an RN for a few years you may look back on your previous self as immature and wonder how you could have thought you could dodge responsibility for your own actions at the time. Some of the unsupportive comments to which you refer probably picked that up before you did. Where you stand depends on where you sit; you may find yourself in a different seat now.

You appear to have turned your life around and made better choices to do harder work this time. Good luck in your future endeavors.