I've posted before about my husband being terminally ill and complications that have come up, but this is the worst it has every been. Currently in ICU with ARDS and sepsis, placed on dialysis yesterday. On a vent, paralytic, the whole works.
Miraculously he has been showing signs of improvement. CXR went from a complete white out to having distinguishable upper lobes, heart, ET. That was amazing. Has been running a PEEP of 20. Went in this morning to a stunned looking pulmonologist telling me that the lungs are regaining some elasticity so they got the PEEP down to 8. (PTL!)
I have been glued to his bedside but am home tonight as I had nobody to take care of our 5 year old. Besides she is desperate for some mommy time and vice versa. I was actually sleeping peacefully and his brother called and woke me up. Couldn't go back to sleep and felt God telling me to get on here and get as many prayers as possible going so that dh can get over the hump. My brother in law is an atheist but I continue to witness to him about God in my life and God's ability to heal if it is in his will.
Please, all you that can pray, please help me out on this one. His name is Dan and I love him more than anything. He had not made a decision for the Lord before he was intubated so that is a big reason for wanting him to wake up and have one more chance.
Thanks in advance to all. You guys are wonderful support.
((((((((Joey and dd)))))))) I am so sorry. Dan's passing sounds so peaceful. I'm so glad you were able to be there and that you didn't have to make any decisions. I hope you can feel the presence of us with you, even if we can't be there physically. Don't forget you aren't alone - you have all of us here. Take care of yourself and your wonderful daughter - you're in my prayers.
have been reading your posts and praying for you each day. So sorry for your pain and grief but am glad that you were able to share his last moments with him. I will keep you and your daughter in my prayers.
I am a true believer in heaven and being at the throne of God and if you dhs faith was 1 iota of yours you can believe hes there completely whole in boby and spirit and altho the grief is huge the pictue of him there is awe inspiring..Im so glad you were there for you and for him ,he knew it was ok to go and YOU gave him that .. What a wonderful gift.God bless you and dd and please keep in touch with us so we will know how you are doing..
Well...as of 6:33am, it is all over. But listen to all that God was able to give me...
1. I was there. They called at 11:30pm last night and told me to come quick. So I had all night to sit on his bed and comfort him.
2. It was peaceful. I believe he went to Heaven. There was absolutely no sense of evil at all in the room.
3. I didn't have to make a decision about the vent--his heart stopped.
4. I didn't have to second guess myself about the CPR part. His HR and Sat just kept getting lower so I know that the risk of brain damage would have been immense if they had tried to revive him.
I can't believe it's over. He has been such a fighter and almost super human for a long time. Thank you so much for your support and prayers.
Dear Nurse Joey
My heart is crying for all you have been through...
I am so very, very sorry for all that you and your dtr have endured. I am a hospice nurse also, and I am always honored when someone invites me into their lives. Thank you.
Take care, my friend, there are many of us that love you and will be for you whenever you need us.
Nursejoey, I don't even know you, yet I admire you for your strength and your love for your family. You are truly a special person, and I can tell that through the sincerity of your words throughout this thread. As your husband rests peacefully now in the arms of our dear Lord and you have done all and more that a loving wife should do, live proudly knowing this and knowing that you will see your husband again. :kiss
Joey... I am so desperately sorry. I have kept and will continue to keep you in my prayers. There is some comfort in knowing that by God's grace you were able to be there, and see the peace that accompanied the transition.
But listen to all that God was able to give me...
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((((((((Joey and dd)))))))) I am so sorry. Dan's passing sounds so peaceful. I'm so glad you were able to be there and that you didn't have to make any decisions. I hope you can feel the presence of us with you, even if we can't be there physically. Don't forget you aren't alone - you have all of us here. Take care of yourself and your wonderful daughter - you're in my prayers.