Be honest - Do you get excited about birth anymore?
I realize I'm going to sound like a burnt out L&D nurse (which I sort of am... I'm considering switching specialities; maybe to a Peds office)
Anyway, I've been in L&D nurse for 2 years. Pretty much since right after orientation, I've felt no longer excited about seeing babies born. Most of the time I secretly pray that my patient won't deliver on my shift. If it's a primip I don't want to push for hours, if it's a multip I'm worried she'll deliver precipitously. One of my biggest fears is a bad baby and being alone in the room and unprepared. And doing deliveries is exhausting... I even secretly think terrible things like hoping my pt gets sectioned so I don't have to deliver her. (Terrible, I know!).
Do other L&D nurses feel this way, or does this just mean I'm totally burnt out and ready for a change?
I thought it would get better as I got more experience, but it's almost gotten worse as I've seen more bad babies etc.
Sometimes when I have a nice delivery and the baby's perfect and I like my patient and they seem really grateful for my help, I'm happy, looking back, that I did end up delivering them. (Even though I silently groaned when I heard those words "she's fully...")
The only time I'm genuinely excited to be part of a delivery is if I know the patient in real life or have some personal connection to her.
I'm hoping that if I get a new job and only work L&D per diem - a few shifts a month, that it'll bring back some of the excitement about enthusiasm about birth.
It's a pet peeve of mine when patients or their families say "what a great job you have! Seeing babies born every day - how wonderful!" Not realizing that it's still WORK and HARD work. I don't want to pop their bubble and let them know that when you see birth every day, it's actually not as miraculous as it is when you see it for the first time (or when it's your own family member...)
This post is coming at the end of 3 shifts in a row, so sorry for the negativity...
I realize I'm going to sound like a burnt out L&D nurse (which I sort of am... I'm considering switching specialities; maybe to a Peds office)
Anyway, I've been in L&D nurse for 2 years. Pretty much since right after orientation, I've felt no longer excited about seeing babies born. Most of the time I secretly pray that my patient won't deliver on my shift. If it's a primip I don't want to push for hours, if it's a multip I'm worried she'll deliver precipitously. One of my biggest fears is a bad baby and being alone in the room and unprepared. And doing deliveries is exhausting... I even secretly think terrible things like hoping my pt gets sectioned so I don't have to deliver her. (Terrible, I know!).
Do other L&D nurses feel this way, or does this just mean I'm totally burnt out and ready for a change?
I thought it would get better as I got more experience, but it's almost gotten worse as I've seen more bad babies etc.
Sometimes when I have a nice delivery and the baby's perfect and I like my patient and they seem really grateful for my help, I'm happy, looking back, that I did end up delivering them. (Even though I silently groaned when I heard those words "she's fully...")
The only time I'm genuinely excited to be part of a delivery is if I know the patient in real life or have some personal connection to her.
I'm hoping that if I get a new job and only work L&D per diem - a few shifts a month, that it'll bring back some of the excitement about enthusiasm about birth.
It's a pet peeve of mine when patients or their families say "what a great job you have! Seeing babies born every day - how wonderful!" Not realizing that it's still WORK and HARD work. I don't want to pop their bubble and let them know that when you see birth every day, it's actually not as miraculous as it is when you see it for the first time (or when it's your own family member...)
This post is coming at the end of 3 shifts in a row, so sorry for the negativity...