I'm incredibly stressed and I am going to use this forum as a therapy session.
I'm a 6 year RN, now in Home Health/Hospice. Been here 3 months after a year of bad career decisions with 5 months off due to termination from a management job and a QA job I had to take, which was far and wasn't working, so I applied for my current job and got it.
I used to work ICU and loved it, but long story short, when I had to go back full time, which happened when my husband I separated when our daughter was 6 months old, I hung on for over 2 years, but couldn't anymore due to lack of help and childcare,w hich when I took that stupid management job.
Anways, I was warned I was hired that many people had quite before me due to paperwork. But it was the best fit at the time for my daughter's schedule. Actually a new person quit 2 weeks in. They joke no one makes it barely past 6 months. Well, I have been going insane the past 2 weeks. I am literally waking up way before my daughter to do paperwork, get my daughter ready for camp, bring her, go to the office, make a million phone calls, do a little more paperwork, get on the road, see patients then do paperwork way after hours. I am literally always working. Always. It's me and my supervisor and the boss in the hospice/palliative section. They are killing me with admissions, and I take on the patients no one else wants anymore as the "new girl" my territories are all over.
My apartment is a mess, I am a mess, my patience with my daughter is short, and I have been told I'm not looking well. Not to mention I am battling 2 bulging discs I can even treat and am just making worse and is causing me intense pain. I have had to give up exercise which is my outlet. Oh, and I eat like crap because its always on the go, or I simply do not even have time to do that.
I'm so burnt. I've been crying. I am 32 and feel 60. I want my health back, a life without constant struggle and some ******* help. And yes, this extends beyond my nursing career. But it seriously feel like one of the hardest professions and I have a love/hate relationship with it. I have a lot of stress other areas in my life, that this much in my career is the tip of the iceberg.
But what else am to do? I have to work, and this is my career and source of income. Sometimes I wish I would have been engineers like my friends. They make over 6 figures and barely work. I run my mind and body into the ground for just enough to pay my bills and a few extras.
Sure, I sound ungrateful, I am happy to have income. But crap, it's killing me.
Thanks for letting me let out this long whiny vent. I swear I'm on the edge of a nervous breakdown.
I'm incredibly stressed and I am going to use this forum as a therapy session.
I'm a 6 year RN, now in Home Health/Hospice. Been here 3 months after a year of bad career decisions with 5 months off due to termination from a management job and a QA job I had to take, which was far and wasn't working, so I applied for my current job and got it.
I used to work ICU and loved it, but long story short, when I had to go back full time, which happened when my husband I separated when our daughter was 6 months old, I hung on for over 2 years, but couldn't anymore due to lack of help and childcare,w hich when I took that stupid management job.
Anways, I was warned I was hired that many people had quite before me due to paperwork. But it was the best fit at the time for my daughter's schedule. Actually a new person quit 2 weeks in. They joke no one makes it barely past 6 months. Well, I have been going insane the past 2 weeks. I am literally waking up way before my daughter to do paperwork, get my daughter ready for camp, bring her, go to the office, make a million phone calls, do a little more paperwork, get on the road, see patients then do paperwork way after hours. I am literally always working. Always. It's me and my supervisor and the boss in the hospice/palliative section. They are killing me with admissions, and I take on the patients no one else wants anymore as the "new girl" my territories are all over.
My apartment is a mess, I am a mess, my patience with my daughter is short, and I have been told I'm not looking well. Not to mention I am battling 2 bulging discs I can even treat and am just making worse and is causing me intense pain. I have had to give up exercise which is my outlet. Oh, and I eat like crap because its always on the go, or I simply do not even have time to do that.
I'm so burnt. I've been crying. I am 32 and feel 60. I want my health back, a life without constant struggle and some ******* help. And yes, this extends beyond my nursing career. But it seriously feel like one of the hardest professions and I have a love/hate relationship with it. I have a lot of stress other areas in my life, that this much in my career is the tip of the iceberg.
But what else am to do? I have to work, and this is my career and source of income. Sometimes I wish I would have been engineers like my friends. They make over 6 figures and barely work. I run my mind and body into the ground for just enough to pay my bills and a few extras.
Sure, I sound ungrateful, I am happy to have income. But crap, it's killing me.
Thanks for letting me let out this long whiny vent. I swear I'm on the edge of a nervous breakdown.