Hi All, well i was able to find a job within a month and a half of relicensure, but asides from all the issues i already have to deal with I am running into another problem at work. I have narcotic stips for one year this is known by the entire nursing management team including the administrator. I felt really weird and embarassed the first day i was orientating i had to tell the first nurse i was with i couldnt pass narcotics and then and all she said was oh my god are you on tpapn? i just told her no and that was the end of that. Then i had to tell my the nurse i was relieving i couldnt touch narcotics, he was ok he didnt ask me anything else he just said ok. Then i had to tell the medication aide i couldnt count narcotics. And he didnt ask why either. just said ok. Then there is the nurse i work with daily. This nurse i told her from day one i couldnt pass narcotics for one year and if she could help me out with that then i could help her with something everyday. She just said ok...but since the first day i had to work with her alone it was on. The med aide would tell her he was ready to count and she would say to tell me and then i have to tell her that i cant count. then she will get upset. And on Thursday. this past week she wanted me to count the cart again. we were at the nurses station and all the nurses were there. she tells me in front of everyone.."why cant you pass narcotics?' i know i turned red as a tomato because when she asked me that in front of everyone my face turned hot. so i quickly told her that it had nothing to do with diverting meds or anything to do with the meds at work that it was something that happened nine years ago and left it at that. but she continued to get upset everytime she had to deal with the controlled drugs for me. and even then still told the med aide again for me to count. so i dont know how to handle this anymore. i try to continue working with my head up and just do my job taking care of my patients that depend on me.