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- by TorsadesRN Nov 27, '12I have been in the program 7 months. I came out of rehab with not many options sponsor wise. In my area there sadly is not enough clean time in the NA rooms. I went with the best option and this lady had 2 years and worked a good program. At least it seemed she was. My sponsor was very open about admitting to being on methadone and taking rx tramadol. I felt a little uneasy, but ok. I just never felt a connection. She didn't work so she didn't understand what it was like balancing work and recovery. She couldn't understand the stress when I was talking about being in a monitoring program and the fear of losing my license. How could I expect her to understand? There was just, I don't know, no "spark" there. No connection. In the NA rooms here people told me I would relapse "because nobody gets it the first time and relapse is apart of recovery". OMG!!!!!!!! Really!!! That is absurd! A motto I heard in rehab and I stick with it is "relapse is not a requirement". I was given a second chance. My license has no disciplinary action on it. I WAS SO DAMN LUCKY AND BLESSED to be given this second chance. That is why I am do determined and DEDICATED to my recovery. So needless to say, I got a new sponsor and next month I am moving OUT OF THIS TOWN!
Long story short, last week my (old) sponsor showed up at a meeting totally out of it. Denying she relapsed she had a fentanyl patch on her arm that she bought of a girl not in the program. Sad.
My higher power is amazing though. My new sponsor has about 7 years clean. She too is in a recovery program because she is a nurse. She finally decided to petition and get her license back. We have that spark. That connection. That kindred spirit almost. It is a two way street. She helps me but it also helps her.
Not sure why I had to blurt this all out there. Maybe so I can get my so many number of posts it so this site will actually let me repond to my private messages in my inbox.
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Keep fighting the good fight!
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- Nov 27, '12 by subeeWe recently had a sponsor commit suicide. So very painful. But you now have the oppoortunuty to be wiser in your choice for your new guide.
- Nov 27, '12 by wish_me_luckI agree relapse isn't a requirement...I don't know if that group is a generic NA group or healthcare provider related one, but if it's generic, then they don't seem to understand that nurses (and other health professions) have to stay clean and sober. We don't have that option to relapse....if we do, then we are in trouble. That's the way I look at it...so, I work AA and Caduceus and I find other outs when I get cravings (I have found doing art projects, volunteering, and drinking coffee helps). I also do talk therapy. I finally found a good therapist I like. *knock on wood*
- Nov 27, '12 by GA_RN2006Im getting ready to start NA meetings next week but I'm not sure how they work. How do you get a sponsor? Also do they sign a paper saying you have attended the meetings?
- Nov 27, '12 by VivaLasViejasRelapse has NEVER been an option as far as I'm concerned. I've come close a few memorable times, but nothing is worth losing what I've worked so hard for during these past two decades. Glad to see you're so determined, Torsades!
- Nov 27, '12 by amygarsideKeep fighting! I hope you will be able to find the will power to overcome this phase in your life.
- Nov 27, '12 by TorsadesRNViva,
I have always said "relapse is not an option"! I live by that. The NA room I am referring to is a generic NA room. There are no caduceus meetings or healthcare professional meetings in this area. Closest one is two hours away. I am moving to a nice area next month and my plan is to start one in that area because the need is definatly there.
GA_RN.....good luck starting with NA meetings. Once you go to a couple meetings you will get a feel for people who you may want to be a sponsor. There are free pamplets in the rooms and one is on sponsorship. I suggest reading it. It may help. I personally believe with sticking with the winners. Avoiding the negativity. I stayed near the people who had some time, who are working the program and who reach out to the newcommers. And yes, they will sign an attendance slip for you saying you were there. Just keep an open mind. The program works if you work it.
- Nov 27, '12 by LilgirlRNYou may find that AA has sponsors with longer time in the program without relapsing. Here there is a huge drug problem and therefore huge NA meetings. Lots of kids buying from each other etc. I was taught that any addiction is the same. If you were on pills etc just think of it as solid alcohol. Some AA sponsors won't take on an NA sponsee but many will.
- Nov 27, '12 by StinkMomBombAnyone care to share their stories in a PM?
- Nov 28, '12 by gonzo1Good job with your current progress Torsades. I can't imagine how hard it must be. Keep on the brave fight. I'm glad that you are moving to a better area. Starting your own group might be a great idea. If you have to be a role model for others it might bolster your resolve even more.
Whenever you need encouragement or a lift come on here. We can/will help. I don't personally have any experience with your particular situation but I am sending positive vibes and hugs. You can do this.