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wish_me_luck has 6 years experience as a BSN, RN.

I am a new nurse in my mid twenties. I have a deep love for Community and Public Health and community outreach. Shortly before I graduated college, I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). It does not define who I am, but it has created a special place in my heart for mental health issues, suicide prevention, and empathy for the person suffering from substance abuse issues. Therefore, my mission in life, other than being a public health nurse, is to educate, advocate, and encourage research on mental health issues and be a listening ear for those who need it.

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  1. Curious, how are things going for you? 

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    Honeymoon phase wears off after a year--job or not

    What I really wanted know with this thread is about the other new grads, with or without a job--did the honeymoon phase/excitement wear off after about a year either way? I think a year is about what it is for everyone.
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    Honeymoon phase wears off after a year--job or not

    wendy, I just do not want to put myself in a situation where the patient load is unsafe to begin with and the whole losing licenses issues. The Board would probably look down on the safety issue even more with me already being in HPMP. I don't want to put myself in a very unsafe situation where I could possibly tangle with the Board again. Nice people they are, but no, I think one time was enough. Nothing against LTC nurses. Just I do not want to put myself in that situation. Just that. Nothing else. One go around was enough.
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    Honeymoon phase wears off after a year--job or not

    I am unemployed somewhat by choice, in that no, I am not doing LTC. My area hospitals are on hiring freeze. I will move. I applied in other places, I get interviews, one or two jobs are outstanding, but no, I am not taking any job just to quit when something better comes along. Another thing people on here have to realize is I cannot work third shift per my contract. I think would actually like nights. I go on little sleep, but I cannot...not allowed. For the haters out there, do not follow me. I am just not the bright eyed bushy tailed new grad like everyone else. I never set out to be an inspiration to anyone, so sorry to disappoint. I can only tell what happened to me, both the highs and lows. Yeah, it is not just me that gets concerned over false positives...read the recovery forum. Plus, also, jobs have to be approved by HPMP. You do not just say that you are applying for XYZ job and ring, they call you with a job offer and you say ok. The monitoring people have to staff and approve a job. Then you come up with a work monitor. Most jobs do not want to deal with that. So, no, it is not as easy as people make it to be. If you do not like me, do not follow my posts and threads. I think it is odd that the same people who do not like me, follow me. Just don't. This board is for inspiration and vents and negativity. I did not put anyone down. I just think the excitement phase of nursing wears off job or no job.
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    Aren't You just Incredibly Proud?

    glycerine, I was a PCT for a short while. My point is this--whether it is healthcare or regular jobs (non-healthcare), you are typically over qualified when you get a license. I wasn't comparing those two--just saying that whether it is within healthcare or outside of it, you are over qualified. I applied to both--nursing jobs and non-healthcare (lower wage jobs, but it is a job). Lower wage jobs were a no go as I was over qualified and they thought I would jump ship if I was offered a nurse position.
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    Honeymoon phase wears off after a year--job or not

    HouTx, no I am not drinking or doing any drugs. I get very worried that I will come out with a false positive (like a benign substance causing a positive) because my substance of choice was alcohol. I had alcohol abuse. Alcohol is in a lot of products, so it is very possible to get a false positive. Any sort of testing is on our dime. I am on a very tight budget. I do not have any extra to spare beyond very basic testing, let alone any false positives. As far as help, I learned my lesson the hard way. That's how I am in this situation. I am at the point where I am involved in other things and if it wasn't for the fact that I dropped so much money on HPMP, I would send my license back. I am not excited anymore. Time is passing and with every month, I am further and further out. I doubt it will happen and I hate how much money I spent for nothing.
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    Aren't You just Incredibly Proud?

    Lynda, I do not have debt. Mine was free because my mom taught at the school. I actually switched majors three times, nursing being the last obviously. Nursing had nothing to do with the money, I like public health anyway, which is like the lowest paid in nursing. I was like the OP, that is my point. The cutesy, excited type that liked the critical thinking, but I like public health rather than solely working in the hospital. I realized post school and hopping through the hoops with the Board and volunteering with Americorps, volunteering in general post Americorps, and hearing about what medical assistants can do, etc. Nursing anymore is not the Florence Nightingale type nursing. Most of the time, nurses chart a good portion of their time and manage rather than hands on care. I realized after the fact that most of the stuff that I am interested in is not solely nursing skills...lay people can do a lot of that stuff too. The way nursing is presented in school is not real world. I am lucky I came out debt free, but for me, the little money I make now to keep the license and not do have job and I ask myself when is enough enough. Let it go. It irks me slightly to think I spent almost 2 grand, which is everything I made post school on drugs screens just to keep a license. That is really the only thing that keeps me from getting rid of my license. Thinking how much I spent already in HPMP. I would be out that money and nothing to show for it. OP, you have to realize that once someone has a license that DQs them for many jobs--CNA, cashier type jobs (due to being overqualified and thinking they will leave if they got a job as a nurse), etc and they are under qualified for others. You can end up stuck. I think being stuck in the middle/rut really made me resent being a nurse and having a license. In all fairness, OP asked if people were proud to be a nurse. No one was slamming OP and crews choice to be a nurse, but my experience having the license has not been good. Therefore, no, I am not a proud nurse. I have other things in life that made me so much prouder than this. Plus, I do not define myself solely by a profession.
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    Honeymoon phase wears off after a year--job or not

    I think one of my biggest fears is that not only do I not get a job, but if I do, would the excitement return? It scares me to think I am so exhausted that I am not excited about a nursing job. I am ok waiting for things. Unlike most new grads I am a year and three months out and almost 7 months into the job search post approval. So, it is not like expecting a job within two weeks after graduation. The truth is, time is not on my side. I am also dumping every dollar I make/have into something that may never happen. Sometimes, I truly think giving the license up would be helpful. I know in about 9 months or so, if I do not have a nursing job, I most likely am going to. That would put me at 2 years out. I like the idea of being able to relax as far as worrying if something would give me a false positive on a drug screen. I like the idea of maybe changing into a field where my mental health issues are not a big deal. I would be able to skip appointments if I could not pay for it.
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    Aren't You just Incredibly Proud?

    lori, no one is saying we aren't happy for you and OP. But, as someone who can write RN after their name (upon getting a job), and those who are actually working as nurses, there is reality. I can't find a job. My area is on a hiring freeze to salvage jobs by re-structuring and moving people within the systems. Jobs are posted, but that doesn't mean they will be filled. The people who have jobs can get stuck with many patients and unsafe ratios. I think I am well within my right to state my opinion. OP did ask. It is called AllNurses. I am a nurse. It is so much easier for the students to pass judgment on people holding a license and those trying to get a nursing job when you all are students. I will admit, trying to get a job and having interviews (yes, I am thankful that I at least get interviews) that are fruitless, it does get depressing. I do not think students have any right to pass judgment on people who do hold a nursing license--with or without a job. I think lori mentioned that she is tired of the negativity on here. I think people can put their experiences. Since the end of nursing school and getting my license, there have been silver linings in the mix, but for the most part it has been more negative. Sorry if I am a "debbie downer", but it has not been positive or sunshine and butterflies for me. I can't give on the job nursing experience and advice; however, I can give my experience of being in a monitoring program and having to look for a job, when I was approved, and not finding anything. I am dropping the very little money I make dealing with keeping my license and have nothing to show for it. OP, in your original post you mentioned people not getting jobs and working their tail off and they should be proud. To me, that is not proud to be a nurse, that is a reflection on the people themselves, not the profession of being a nurse. To the nurses, veterans or newbies, I am absolutely sorry that I threw my two cents in about you all needing to be sunshine and butterflies when I was in school.
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    Aren't You just Incredibly Proud?

    lori, I am not a veteran nurse. I did not go into nursing for the money. I actually like public health. I want nursing students to realize that it is not sunshine and butterflies; there is reality. It is not being negative in stating reality. I have considered doing something non-nursing. Just as you have stated your opinion, I can state mine.
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    Odd questions about job postings, etc.

    Sometimes, they post positions that they have no intention to fill.
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    Aren't You just Incredibly Proud?

    I am from a relatively small area. Not podunk, but small. I know between the school I graduated from and surrounding schools, they put out 200+ nurses a year (probably more). So, yeah, where I live there are many nurses. It is not a troll post. I do not know if many of the people who have been on AN for a long time remember, but I used to be the sunshine, happiness flying out my patootie and I think reality set in. I have not gotten my first job as a nurse (I will probably have to move once I get an offer); however, I have involved myself in a lot of non profit/community involvement and the non profits and the like make a huge difference in peoples' lives. It is not just nurses or any other healthcare professionals. One group of people I admire a lot are social workers. Then, there's police officers, firemen, etc. God bless the mechanics...I do not know much about cars, I am sure glad they do. Anyway, the most exciting thing to me about nursing is the education aspect of it. I LOVE the fact I can educate a client (which actually lay people can do too) on a certain topic and empower them to make healthcare decisions for themselves. I love "helping people" do for themselves, not me do it. Is that a sole nursing responsibility? No. Actually, lay people can do education on health topics. I was never an ER or ICU chick. Sorry if I am less of a nurse or will be when I get my first job than those who deal with life and death. Technically, a lay person can save someone's life when doing CPR. I do not define myself and worth based on a profession. I prefer qualities and characteristics of a person rather than profession. I have a friend from nursing school that nursing was a calling (I felt that, too) and she told me once that she wish she didn't go into nursing. The calling (for both of us) was as a nursing student; reality hit upon becoming a nurse, for both of us--the struggles to find a job and the reality of what nursing is. I did quickly realize that I was talking about the "sunshine and butterflies" that nurses should have when I wasn't a nurse yet. OP has not even started nursing school. Yes, OP, there are great things nurses do, there are crappy things about the profession. It evens out to a neutral, "meh, it is a job" mentality for many. Just my two cents.
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    Aren't You just Incredibly Proud?

    I am a nurse...why would I be jealous? I want something that is not something 10 out of 12 people are doing. Everyone and their grandma is becoming a nurse because they think it will bring good money. When everyone does something, you are not special. It's just normal...nothing special or anything that makes you different. I think I am fortunate enough to have a college degree and such (especially not having debt in a time where other new grads are drowning in it), but being proud of a profession is not something that I am. Every profession has something to offer. I am glad that I am humble and keep striving for bigger and better things for my community. I do not care about recognition. Big deal, it is nursing, not coming up with the solution to end world hunger or creating world peace. I just want to meet my communities needs (and then some) whether it be as a nurse or some other profession. It is what I would do as a nurse that would bring me pride, not the fact that I am a nurse.
  14. So, I have come to the conclusion that the excitement of being a nurse and everything that goes with that newness wears off after a year...employed or unemployed. I still do not have a job and I am a year and almost 3 months out. I have become cynical and apathetic, I think. So, it is not nursing burnout. I truly just think the excitement wears off about a year out for everyone. Thoughts?
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    It's Tough Out There!

    Good luck! I know the health systems where I am are on hiring freezes due to finances because of Affordable Care Act. They are re-structuring and are on a hiring freeze to prevent loss of jobs.
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    What draws non-nurses to AN.com?

    Are they a nursing student?