Messed up bad..... - page 4

So I've only had my nursing license since 2011, and I love what I do. Unfortunately, I messed up really bad and now I'm worried about what's next. I tested positive for meth about a week ago. My... Read More

  1. by   LadysSolo
    OHRN2011, there is light out the other side. I too am in Ohio, and I have worked with two nurses who have completed the program. Both were still under restriction, but able to work. One was able to work in a NH but not pass any controlled meds while under restriction, the other worked as an STNA in a facility while under restriction, so at least both were able to work. You did it, so you will have to "do your time," so to speak, but you can do this!
  2. by   OHRN2011
    That's encouraging actually. I know my license may never be the same but after everything I'm willing to work under any restrictions necessary.
  3. by   SpankedInPittsburgh
    Do you know how long the Ohio program is?
  4. by   Lisacar130
    I don't know spankedinpittsburgh... I'm not sure I would present recovery in such a negative way to a nurse who is addicted to meth. And this is coming from someone who used to shoot up dilaudid in the bathroom at work.
    I would agree with your approach if this was a nurse who maybe got a DUI once or got busted for a one time thing. The program kind of sucks for these people. But I don't know... it is meth and maybe this person could use a few years of monitoring and meetings? You know, so he/she doesn't die? It's kind of hard to stop doing hard drugs without any monitoring or help.
  5. by   SpankedInPittsburgh
    It was just a question. I've heard Ohio had a 2 year program on-line here. I'm hoping for his sake that this is true.
  6. by   berdeenbird
    I have scoured everything I could for years now until they got to me. I have heard anything from 1-5 years.
  7. by   SpankedInPittsburgh
    Thank you. At least there is some hope he won't be in there for 5 years
  8. by   kaylee.
    Hi OP, I sorry to hear your story. Just curious though, you said you tested positive for "meth". If you diverted narcs wouldnt that show up as the metabolite morphine or some opiate? Were you taking any other drugs that would test positive for meth?
  9. by   Ms.UndastoodRn
    Awesome advice! No one is exempt. It can happen to anyone and will actually make you a better person and NURSE after you complete your steps and re-enter the nursing world! Good luck to ALL! No judgement ever this way. LIFE has a way of kicking you to wake you up. We LEARN and do better!! God Bless
  10. by   audreysmagic
    Best wishes to you, OP. I'm not in recovery, myself - had the fortune to not struggle with substance abuse - but I work in behavioral health, often with the detox side of things, and I've seen how horrible addiction can be. You mention your child - the best thing you can do for him is to get clean! And, while I'm not familiar with Ohio's supervision and recovery program, so I'll defer to those who do, I will say that some of the BEST detox/rehab nurses and counselors I've worked with were stable in recovery themselves.
  11. by   Ben_Dover
    Quote from OHRN2011
    .... Problem is my back kept hurting but I didn't want to go back and ask for more because I'm a nurse and thought it was a conflict. So I started skimming them off patients. I'm from a small town and a I ran into a former friend who was into street drugs and said it was cheap. I reasoned it that at least I wasn't stealing from my patients. It got to where I was doing it daily to get through the day....I don't know how I got here. My supervisor got suspicious and called me into HR and I took a UA hoping that I would be clean because it had been a day or two. .... I worked so hard to get my degree and now it's all gone.

    I wasn't going to make this comment but I had to.

    I don't think you had the accountability and responsibility right from the start. You probably would have not stop either. Honestly, I'm glad you got busted!

    I will be surprised if a fellow member of Allnurses defends your action and one may say that I lack sympathy or compassion. I do but only for cases like this.
    --- It is inexcusable---

    We all make mistakes. But what you did was intentional. As I mentioned, I'm really glad you got caught. And I hope you did not cause any harm to any of your patients while you were under the influence. "You, as a Nurse" should know better.

    I'm not an Angel nor Perfect. But I tell you this, I will not do something intentionally stupid to waste what I worked hard for, my family, my livelihood and my future!

    Sounds to me you're now all polite and sorry just cause you got caught!

    P.s.
    Tonya36rn, ADN You wrote:
    "Awesome advice! No one is exempt. It can happen to anyone..."

    Well, I sure hope not! Sweet Mother Of Hairless Baby Jessie, Please Help Them!
    Last edit by Ben_Dover on Oct 25 : Reason: tonya36rn
  12. by   Lisacar130
    You know what... what are you doing on a recovery board with your judgemental attitude? Perhaps you also have a sickness. Sorry, but there isn't an expert in the field that would agree with you.
    You probably don't know this, but there are brain changes that occur with the addiction process. The higher functioning part of your brain that makes rational decisions stops working and the reptilian/survival part of your brain takes over. It looks like it's intentional to an outsider but it isn't. The OP said this started with prescription medication and escalated from there, and yes this could happen to anyone. Some people's brain chemistry is set up to be more susceptible to addiction, and for others something devestating happens which also changes their brain chemistry and makes them more susceptible to addiction.
  13. by   purplechick1977
    I don't know about your state, but in NY we have a few programs to help nurses with addiction. I am in the same boat as you as far as diverting medications from residents. I know a lot of other nurses from the recovery support group have been able to retain or re-instate their licenses after completing a program. It is a long process and I've not had my last court appointment, but I am currently in outpatient drug rehab with support group meetings and counseling. Sadly, addiction is all too common among nurses. I'm lucky that my employer is willing to work with me to keep my license intact but I know there will be many restrictions in place. Stay positive and take life 1 day at a time.

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