LPNewbie, I am an NP and also teach in an LPN program. I also have suffered from depression since age 14 (that I can remember, probably longer.) I started getting help for it when I was almost 40 years old, was prescribed medication that did not help the depression but made me sleepy, I did not like it. I got counseling from a social worker in independent practice, she was VERY helpful. Told me as long as I had been depressed it likely would never go away but I could learn to deal with it and have a good life. You CAN learn to be organized (that was never a problem for me, I am very anal about things.) You CAN succeed, as I mentioned before you need to be satisfied with yourself, and realize nursing is truly thankless much of the time, but you ARE making a difference in your patients' lives (particularly if you wind up in LTC, so many of the elderly have no visitors and you become their family.) You are correct that healthcare is a business, and management does NOT care about the workers, but workers very often care about each other and usually care (sometimes too much) about their patients. I know I worry about mine at night and when I have a day off.