Thanks to everyone for the wonderful words. It surely did put my life into perspective when this happened. I knew in my heart that she needed to get help, but I also seen myself in her many years ago, lost, afraid, living minute by minute, depressed but not know it, and seeing life through tempered glass that made everything fuzzy and meaningless. Numb, thats what I was. And I saw all of that in her, along with a great nurse deep down inside.
I can't explain how wonderful I feel about my life. I catch myself "happy" everyday, looking around and wondering what I did to deserve all of this, , a great family, a wonderful home and a rewarding career. But then I tell myself, that I deserve this because I worked for it. I was honest with myself and dug my way out of the hole I put myself into... now that hole has filled with dirt and has grass growing on it. I plan to stay out of that hole. This life is happy,,,, it's a good life