You could've practically been writing about my first LPN clinical experience. I went into my first rotation with 6 months of CNA work at a SNF under my belt and was so excited about getting my hands dirty and learning a ton of "nursing" stuff. Boy, our first day was a nightmare! We had the same problem with staff who didn't want us there. We wear name tags with our names on them and still the nurse supervisor called me "student". I was like, "uh, I have a name you know." (didn't say it, just thought it) And the CNA's called us the "vitals girls" because that's about all we ever got to do there. It was a tiny, old run down place with 30 patients. And it was one of those places that reeks of urine.
It was really sad. I had to go home after that first day and totally revamp my attitude and way of thinking. I decided to take it as a learning lesson of how to have a good attitude in a horrible situation and to just try to do my best to get along with people who didn't want us there. There was another group in my class who went to a different facility and got to do tons of hands-on stuff. They are all really confident in their skills. My group all feels like we got the short end of the stick, but are hoping next semester goes better as we are one-on-one in clinics.
As for the grading, I've never heard of that before. That sounds really odd. Maybe just an excuse for not wanting to monitor the students as much as they need to??? But I do understand being graded for something the instructor didn't even see. My instructor almost never saw me do anything. He had to be pushed around in a wheelchair if he did observe us. LOL! But yet he tried to tell me at the end that my comfort level with the patients had improved a lot. I was totally laughing inside because honest to goodness, he had NEVER seen me with a patient during clinical. LOL! And in my CNA job, my nurses #1 thing they tell me is that I am very good with the patients and always have them laughing and smiling. So, I took it worth a grain of salt, shook my head, and accepted my passing grade.
I am taking it all as a lesson in getting along with different types of people. Everybody tells me not to worry anyway because I will learn everything on the job, not in school.
That was a long-winded way of saying you aren't alone.