What is WRONG with this??

I am just wondering...do any of you consider yourself a nurse when you are NOT at work???? I mean, I know we are regardless...but I really dont think of myself as a nurse when Im at home or what not. At work, I am the nurse....I work hard, I care for my residents, I deal with staff and families and the trauma that comes with that territory but Im actually pretty decent at it. Some of my residents tell me they love me and I tell them that I love them too...some hug me and I hug back. I have been the shoulder for a few when they lost their husbands or children to cry on without a blink of an eye. Same goes for my coworkers. But...at home Im not like this. I show affection to my 2 yr old son but I dont go out of my way for others when Im here. For example..this is going to sound awful. My mother in law just broke her ankle at work..2 days ago and I still havent been up to see her yet...but I have worked all week and Im tired. On top of that I dont feel the greatest today. I never make any special trips to my in laws. I will eventually get around to it...but in the meantime my sister in law is a nurse and she usually takes care of this sort of thing within the "family". Ive always stayed out if I could. When my husband pulled a muscle in his back I did wait on him like I do my residents at work but thats been a while. My other sister in law is well..shes got a huge 20 yr hx of drug addiction so I dont like being around her if I can avoid it. She seems to be doing better now but I just cant bring myself to visit her and she lives w/ my in laws. When my neices had their babies...I didnt go to the hospital. I hate hospitals. I didnt even want to be there when my own son was born. And the weird thing is...I didnt even want visitors when I had him. At home, I dont like to be bothered with anything. My aunt is at home dying of cancer of the pancreas, liver and colon and I cannot bring myself to go see her and she only has about 2 wks according to my mom. We arent close anyways...but....still...What is this?????? How can one be soooo different in 2 different settings involving the same basic theme???? Ive always been this way though. I find it easier to show affection to a 90 yr old with a UTI than I do "regular" people. To see me or know me outside of my job you would never ever guess in a million years that I am a nurse. Why dont I feel like one when Im home? Ive been a nurse for 3 yrs and in LTC for 9 1/2 yrs total. Has anyone else experienced this or am I just a weirdo????? Another PRIME example, a few yrs ago we were at the beach and a woman got stung by a jellyfish, she was in alot of pain,crying, etc...and I couldnt muster up the guts to go help her. I did call 911 but I didnt even stop. I just walked by. I knew what it was as soon as I saw her legs. I didnt stop for fear of getting sued even though there is that good samaritan law and all....I just couldnt do it. Is this normal for some people? Is it a nursing curse? Or is it just who some of us are???