Hello! I am a level 3 nursing student, I'm half way done and still have 2 more semesters left. I chose nursing because I was raised in my family that taught me I had to be in the medical field if I want to be successful in life. I also have the mentality of wanting to help others and I love the feeling of knowing you just help change someone's life and be there for them in their most vulnerable time.
Anyways, I really thought nursing was for me but I've been in nursing school
for over a year now and I still haven't really found that "ah hah!" moment that's going to motivate me to finish. What REALLY bothers me is that people at my school take the nursing profession TOO seriously! You always have to be professional and watch out for what you say, how you present yourself, your facial expression, and always be on top of everything and if you accidentally make a mistake, there's harsh consequences that could result in you being expelled and not getting your license/job (which has happened to a few of my classmates). Unfortunately I didn't do much research on my school when I was applying, I just heard good reviews about it and applied to it because they gave me a really good scholarship
. I now realize that I chose a school that had VERY high expectations for their students. That the curriculum is WAY more challenging than other nursing schools
out there when I ask other nursing students about theirs. Let's just say my nursing school is very "EXTRA", and even nurses who wants to go back to get their BSN tell me that they don't want to go to my school because they make it too "unnecessarily" difficult.
Everyday that I go to school, I always feel like I have to put on a mask and pretend to be someone I'm not. I always have to watch out for what I say or how I present myself. I'm the type of person who's responsible and follow directions but there's a limit to how strict someone can be before I can't handle it. Just recently I got in trouble for something very little that the school took very seriously. Thank God they let me off with a warning, but it's really making me think about my career choice. I also realized that once I graduate and work as a nurse, it's very much still going to be the same. I'll have to deal with people who do not appreciate me. I'll always be exhausted and worn out, and my job will always be on the line and every little mistake that I make can easily get me fired and lose my license. I just think that nursing profession is taken a little too seriously.
Dropping out is not an option for me at the moment. I want to finish and get my masters at least, but I'm having trouble finding the motivation to finish nursing school.
What I'm really interested in is aesthetician and plastic surgery, so do you know any field that I can go into with my nursing degree?
And how did you find the motivation to get through nursing school? I would really appreciate your feedback.