17 days until graduation!!!
My first ideals of becoming a nurse mainly had to do with self-interests. I have a 6 year old boy who relies on me, and a beautiful fiancee who works her ass off supporting me (she's a manager at McDonalds), and I want to give them both a better life!
However! Through out my 3 years at school, I've learned some things about myself. I've learned that money, while necessary, certainly isn't everything! I acquired a deep satisfaction when I started really getting into my clinicals. Teaching patients, they looked up to me as a source of knowledge, or a master of my craft (even though I was a mere student!) and that felt amazing. Sitting around and talking to my patients, i.e. one patient I had was post-op (inguinal hernia repair... which I got to see! Super cool...), well, I just sat around and talked to him (after my morning care). We talked about chess, music, poetry, and you could just tell that he was exhilarated that I was just sitting with him, and talking to him (he came from a nursing home), and I was enjoying myself! Self-less rewards, and what-not.
It's just so amazing, effecting people's lives in ways that one could never imagine. The tears I've shed watching a family suffer the pain of loss (I spent 40 minutes doing chest compressions on a patient to no avail
). The laughs I've shared with patients, fellow students, and staff. Coming home feeling like today I was blessed to be alive and healthy, and I went through my day feeling satisfied because I knew that I made a difference, however large or small.
It will not be easy, I have no legitimate experience (I'm not an R.N. yet!), but I know that this what I am here to do. Why do I want to be a nurse? Because I can't see myself doing anything else. Look out world, this (soon to be) R.N. is coming, to a hospital near you!