Am I sabotaging my future????

  1. Ok, I skipped my three classes today (seminar, and 2 theories), I have a 15 page paper due next Friday... Instead of doing the things I was supposed to be doing, I slept all day. I am going through major depression people. I don't remember the last time I've felt this way. Yes, I am on meds for it...100mg Zoloft. I've been on it for >5 years. I've said it before here, I'm so used to being a student, I'm feeling like I'm subconsciously sabotaging my graduating in less than 2 months. I have to get out of this funk!!
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  2. 25 Comments

  3. by   Altra
    It's a stressful time, Jen ... no doubt about it. I can understand some of what you might be feeling - I was a SAHM for years before going back to school, and now I'm facing working full-time again. Major mom-guilt. Major insecurity over whether I can handle the responsibiltiies I'm about to take on. Do I know enough? Can I handle the stress load? These things are keeping me up at night.

    Are you unconsciously jeopardizing graduation? Only you can answer that. It might help to think about it this way: just do what needs to be done in order to graduate. Whatever happens after that can be dealt with later, but in order to have options, you need that diploma.

    {{Hugs}}
  4. by   prmenrs
    You probably have an MD or someone regulating your meds. Put in a call and find out what you can do about it.

    GOod Luck.
  5. by   UM Review RN
    Our entire class went through a weird funk a couple of months before graduation. I think it was because it was so intense and because we all were trying so hard.

    Every time we got an assignment we'd sigh and groan and invariably someone would say, "I am SOOOO over this school and studying thing."

    I didn't want to LOOK at another book for oh, about 20 years. Which is why I still don't have my BSN even though I'm about 2 classes away from it.

    Anyhow---

    Just to let you know that a lot of us sure do understand where you're coming through right now. Just do it and get it overwith already. The best (actually BEING a nurse!) is yet to come!
  6. by   wonderbee
    Wise words from everyone here. Jen, just know you have my support. I too have suffered from major depression over the years and can relate to your fears. As Michelle put it, you don't necessarily have to worry about it right now. Just graduate so your options are open. One day at a time Jen. Try not to overwhelm yourself with looking at the whole mountain. Just check out that foothill up ahead and concentrate on it.

    Hugs to you too.
  7. by   DDRN4me
    Jen, you are experiencing a completely normal feeling...it DOES become overwhelming at this time of your classes. Just take one day at a time, work on the paper one day at a time, and before you know it you'll be wearing that cap and gown!! You have gone so far, in comparison to where you need to go! We are all here pulling for you!!!!(Especially those of us who have farther to go!!!) Mary
  8. by   Sheri257
    Quote from Angie O'Plasty, RN
    I didn't want to LOOK at another book for oh, about 20 years. Which is why I still don't have my BSN even though I'm about 2 classes away from it.
    Boy, you said it. I keep thinking I'll get my BSN and Masters someday but ...

    I'm so burned out from school right now, forget it.

    Good luck Jen. Hang in there. It will be over soon.

  9. by   SusanJean
    How are you feeling today? Did you call your doctor?

    SJ
  10. by   jenrninmi
    Thank you everyone. I knew you guys would make me feel better. After I'm done here I'm going to go run on the treadmill. I have not called my doctor, I'm going to see if exercise helps first. Like you guys said, I just need to take one day at a time. Thanks again everyone! You all are the best!
  11. by   Tweety
    Been there and done that. I probably would have been a nurse many years prior had it not been for some depression in the 80s. But it all worked out in the end and I hope that it does for you too.

    Best wishes.
  12. by   Kabin
    Good idea to do the exercise, as you know, any med change wouldn't be felt for a couple of weeks, if at all. As other have said, we all feel burned out from time to time, but you can do it!
  13. by   arciedee
    Hi there... I'm not in nursing school yet, but I remember last year one of my best friends was close to completing her BSN (same school you're at, I believe) and I remember listening to her complain about many of the same things. It seems from what she and other posters on here have said, it's kind of a "senioritis" type thing... sometimes the closer we get to a goal the more we just want it to be done and over with and wish we could crawl in a hole until that time. Unfortunately that's not an option. Recognize that this is a tough time for you but that you WILL get through it. As someone else said, just take it one day at a time. Take care of yourself... working out is great for those endorphins. And plan some rewards for yourself for after you've completed your goals, i.e. once that 15-pg paper is conquered you will take a bath, watch some tv, or whatever else helps you decompress and brings you joy. And if this depression is something that has been going on for more than a few days definitely check in with your doc.
  14. by   Lawnurse
    Jen, I can sympathize greatly. I am also about to graduate (from law school - got my bsn in 2002), have a huge paper due in a few days, and am suffering from depression (part of Bipolar II with dysphoric mania/hypomania/my doctor isn't really sure yet).

    I slept all day yesterday and didn't work on the paper at all and felt GREAT for having procrastinated.

    I just get so nervous and worked up when I'm actually working on the paper - a worse feeling than knowing the deadline is fast approaching.

    suggestions and encouragment appreciated :uhoh21:

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