In work related situations I can be like iron and hold my ground very well, but in social situations I have a deep and serious phobia that I might put my foot in my mouth, for example company picnics or hanging out at kids' birthday parties with the other parents.
I avoid social gatherings like the plague. It's bad enough I occasionally put my foot in my mouth online where there is a vague amount of anonymity, but face to face?
I'd rather have a megacode in the middle of drilling a skull to put an IVC on a pregnant woman!
At work another nurse was organizing a kickball team for a 6 week recreational league. I was asked to play and then when I said I'd rather not, they promised that I wouldn't have to be sporty and they just needed bodies to cover in case of people's shift schedules. I agreed and had to work through the first day (whew!) but went to the second week. Needless to say I was awful, but I cheered for the good plays the other teammates performed.
The next day I was told by the person who invited me that my name was never on the roster and that I shouldn't have even showed up. She said their roster was full and that she'd put me on the sub list in case they needed me.
I was hurt. I was very very
embarrassed. I told my work friend what happened and of course, they told everyone else. This morning when I was reporting off, the original organizer/nurse came up to me and yelled at me in front of everyone. I told her that I felt bad about being invited and then being told I shouldn't have come. I couldn't stay and talk further because I had to get home in time to let my husband go to work.
It's bothering me enough to post about it, and I feel like I did something wrong and now everyone at work will think I'm a bad person for showing up to something I "wasn't invited to".